_typical plain Jane_

2011-09-19T16:29:00.002+08:00

well wad can i say?i haven been blogging alr!even since e end of e omg super emo alvl life~~by right i shld hv e time 2 do it but i end up get more busy!:D vacation jobs, overseas trips, uni prep blahblahblah~~

not sure if its a gd thing or bad thing~~but at least i am now less emo?hehe..even though uni is worse than alvl i gotta admit cos of e workload..butbutbut at least i can get 2 choose wad i wanna do!:D (well not always unfortunately cos of insufficient pts 2 buy e mods tt i really wan study)..oh well i shall train my patience n wait until i accumulate more pts!:P

oh ya i m supposed 2 say wad class i took like eons ago right!:P yupp i finally can say wad is it cos i graduated!:P n wad other lessons can u think of other than driving??!!YAYY!!:D muahaha~~ok la i noe some might think its no big deal but 2 me its a miracle!:D actually my results arent fantasic cos i juz passed..if i overshot i will b a goner~~but e fact tt most of my lessons b4 e test r quite horrid means its not bad alr!:D ok shall leave out e details though..or else its gonna b some novel!:P actually i got many ppl 2 thank..e wonderful tester n some of e instructors n most imptly, God!!:D i din do it all by myself~~:D

anw now its so called 1 wk hol which actually its mug time!:( cos CAs r coming!>< gosh beta go back on track soon!v impt 4 a gd CAP score!:D buaisss!

blogosphere..

2010-12-10T18:57:00.003+08:00

ok~~~so alvls is finally over!(a few wks ago actually)..hmm i thot i wld b v happy tt its over..but somehow i am not as happy as i shld b..it juz seems like a dream..sth like oh its over?tts gd kind of feeling..not e whee!!its over!! feeling..haha..ok i shall not tink abt it 4 now..hehe..later den worry..

didnt go prom cos i was away in msia..haha opp cost la u noe XD..hmm i am kinda jealous of those who can go as i see more prom pics coming up on fb news feed..but of course i also find e event quite ex..cos e total cost includes a new dress n makeup..haha so its ok..anw i had a gd time over at msia :D..

cant wait 2 go out wif my bestie :D..totally miss her loads sia..mayb cos we were once enemies n so when we become frens we r quite close?haha quite funny actually..anw i finally signed up 4 a class!XD..shall not reveal wat class it is until later when i succeeded in completing it :D..hmm n i am still looking 4 a job..actually someone alr called me but its a recruitment agency so my job's not cfmed..hmm hope my other applications can get thru..wish me luck!:D..oh well i beta study 4 my class!hehe..its definitely beta than studying 4 alvls!XD..cos e thing tt is learnt will b useful!:D:D:D

2010-11-28T12:49:00.000+08:00

counting down:approx 26 hrs 15 min more 2 liberation dae!:D

2010-11-05T21:56:00.002+08:00

scared, really scared..i could not imagine retaining..its even worse than getting kicked out of sch 2 go poly..i am afraid tt my efforts r wasted..n i totally dislike tt helplessness as i watch ppl get back their results n whopping wif joy when they seem 2 b slackers...

i wish i could run away from it..n sleep away n forget abt it..but when i wake up..i had 2 face reality...

hais wat 2 do??juz try my best once n 4 all in tis last chance!n hopefully my 2yrs worth of efforts pay off!:)..jiayou!!!:D (as 4 wat kind of results i will get..ishall not worry!:D)

anw i wan thk one of my best fren 4 encouraging me:D..n she sent me tis: trust in e Lord with all ur heart n lean not on ur own understanding.in all ur ways acknowledge Him n he will make ur path straight prov 3:5-6

2010-10-15T20:21:00.002+08:00

well~ 2dae is our so called last dae of sch!dunno if i shld b sad or happy..but i did not vry during farewell lol!!prolly becos e assembly is not solemn..haha..tis yr one is abit more boring than last yr..cos they only show vids n some student performances..n we had 2 keep standing aiyo!soo squeezy alr still hv 2 sit n stand..haha..but overall still quite funny..i like e arts n pe dept one!soo funny!chem n phy one also ok la..but if only phy one got more tchers involved in e skit lol!lang dept one also quite lol!!doing e yog dance hahaha!but sad thing is theres no vid from maths dept!:(..aiyo how can liddat sia!n we all tio scammed when we thot tt there will b free icecream!ohman..calling e icecream ppl come 2 sch also called surprise??!!lol

i prolly will miss VA n some of my frens n tchers..but overall i dun miss aj compared 2 zhss..even thot e patriotic zhss feel has sort of wore off..i feel tt zh hv many beta aspects compared 2 aj..mayb i spend 4 yrs there compared 2 2 yrs in aj?so far..e only thing is tt aj has helped me nurture my love 4 art thru VA..or else i will b juz an empty shell..

i can still rmb 2 yrs ago we were given red carpet treatment juz as e tchers got 4 tcher's dae..n some more we had buffet..though nth much..n how serious n touching e scene was..almost everyone got rabbit eyes(lol!)..hiash tt time was e end of e 4yrs n e beginning of olvl battle..though e sch changed quite a bit like e vision..i still rmb e old one:to make zhss our second home..n somehow i realised it only aft leaving..but anw..all gd things come 2 an end..

aft saying so much..i will b on hiatus once again!cos e alvl battle has juz begun!:D..jiayous 2 those taking alvls also!:):)..cant wait 4 29nov 2 come!:)

2010-09-23T21:22:00.002+08:00

lol..v long nv post liao wor! XD..

anw i am slacking away rite now cos prelims juz ended 2dae~~ :)..though we will not b spared from those mock papers 2 prep 4 alvls -.-..damn my break is gonna b a really short one though..n i sincerely hope tt my efforts will not go down e drain..well...at least for alvls...

too much things had happened..idk why but they r mostly bad stuffs tt i dun wish 2 talk abt..ppl may say i am overly sensitive..even 2 e most trivial stuff...but tt is e way i am mah..i get worked up easily..though i seem 2 b more picky now..wateva..mayb i shld juz b selfish n simply care abt myself n not others..after all..nobody will bother if u care..n they may even think u hv ulterior motives..or rather ppl find u easy 2 bully..why shld i worry abt others when i hv 2 worry abt myself first?tts life..its a matter of survival..chasing in e rat race..

honestly..i feel tt i am too kind 2 some ppl..not tt i wan gain credit 4 doing good deeds..after all zu ren wei kuai le zi ben wat..i dun mind helping those who really need my help..but really..i find out tt they dun deserve at all..like they dun give u good stuff they hv even when u hv given them..i mean..i didnt ask 5 or expect any reward or anything..but its juz tt they shld at least try 2 do sth in return?dun they feel bad at all taking ur stuff n not doing anything in return?i wonder......
anyway i shall not say who am i referring 2..confidentality purposes......

well..this post is getting more emo..damn..tink i shld stop...but i shall end off wif a little warning: if any of u out there notice tt i hv become quite cold 2 u all..pls forgive me..cos i am conditioned 2 b like this.....

2010-08-21T10:38:00.002+08:00

heheh..finally got sth happy 2 talk abt..at least..

won e rhd free media design comp!!haha..still really happy abt it despite knowing abt it long time ago!!:Dthough i didnt get into e top 3..i am still happy!!woohoo!!considering tt i only chiong it during e weekends juz b4 e deadline..lol!!i tink those who hv seen it will nt believe tt it can get me sth..esp myself..when i saw e sms aft e gp midyr paper i was like omg i cant believe it!haha..but when i saw e list of those winners there r nt merits..guess e submissions 4 e jc category nt v popular..lol..we were like aiya e prize is like participation prize..lol!!but wateva it is..at least i hv won sth at national lvl 4 e 1st time:D..tis may seem nth 2 some ppl but 4 a noob like me who no matter how much i tried still cant get anything..it is a great affirmation!:)..n my sch totally owned tt category!!yeah!!congrats 2 VA!!we rock!!:D

n i hv more or less decided whr i wan go alr!!haha..n i hv also wat 2 do in e event tt i cant get into e local unis:)..nw i juz need 2 get over e excitement n get cracking!!:D

2010-07-22T20:36:00.002+08:00

rawr!!ptm tmr!!:/..lol..actually my parents alr noe my results le..but they gg 2 see tcher tmr..n tmr is dad's bdae:(..feel so terrible inside..omg i realised tt e alvl result 4 last yr j2s falls on my bdae!!!wth!!thk goodness i am born one yr later..lol..

srsly..i tink nxt yr will release e results on a dae close 2 my bdae..cant b on my bdae cos it falls on sat nxt yr..n whether it will b my best pressie or worse really depends on my performance..but look at me~~~n my results..i srsly doubt my ability..n e sch claims tt we nvr study..ok mayb tt applies 2 some ppl..but COME ON LAH I PURPOSELY DEDICATED A WK 4 EACH OF MY WEAKER SUBJECTS HOR..SO TT I CAN PRACTISE OK..DUN U DARE ACCUSE ME OF NOT GIVING MY BEST..STOP MAKING SUCH BASELESS ACCUSATIONS..U R JUZ TRYING 2 TELL ME MY IQ V LOW RITE??!!U SHLD HV JUZ CHASED ME OUT OF SCH LAST YR WHEN I WAS JUZ PLAIN LUCKY 2 SCRAPE THRU PROMOS LO!!I AM NT CUT OUT 4 JC MAH..I MAY GET RETAINED IN J2 NXT YR OR GO STRAIGHT 2 NYP!!WTH!!!><

ok enough of ptless ranting..juz not gonna get me anywhere..well wat can i say?i focused alot on my weaker subs n i still fail..n those tt i didnt study at all or juz a bit actually got me passes-.-..e latter seems 2 b a gd thing..but does tt mean tt i shldnt b studying so hard in order 2 pass everything??=.="gosh..my efforts dun seem 2 b paying off at all..

2 those ppl who still complain despite doing well esp A-Cs..pls stop ur nonsense n b contented wif ur results can anot??!!u shld b thankful tt u hv e capability 2 get such grades tt many desire n yet u r nt happy?!u r juz unappreciative of ur talents n if u r so unhappy..why dun u juz donate ur capabilities 2 us n keep getting e so called common grades..mayb u will understand how we feel..mayb u will change ur horrible attitude..n 2 those ppl who dun mean it when they say they dun do well..pls stop being such dirty liars!!u r only cheating urself n gg against ur conscience..wait till ur pants go up on fire den u noe ah!!liar liar pants on fire~~~~!!!!

2010-07-10T20:40:00.004+08:00

another wk has passed..n weekends r finally here once again!:)..wish they can stay:)

anw wat i can only say nw is tt i totally dread sch:( srsly..it seems a chore 2 get up from ved n take 853 2 sch..even e bus rides r getting really boring..a stark contrast from when i first joined aj(call me crazy)..like..there seems 2 b no meaning in education..qns will keep popping up in my head..like why am i studying a certain sub etc..honestly..i may seem 2 b ok in sch..putting up a strong front 4 everyone..like i heck care abt everything..but it juz seems not like myself..call me hypocrite AGAIN i dun care but see 4 urself when u r in sch..i am juz plain deceptive..i tink i am juz cheating myself:/
juz wish tt those last few mths can b over asap!!den tt nightmare shall only b a memory 2 b erased..well at least until e dae when we get back results..
n i was really enlightened by some ppl..cos they had affirmed tt wat i had done is rite so far(almost all):)..yea cos some stuffs happened tt really made me down..n these ppl had believed in me..thks!:D

its over!!(4 now)

2010-07-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

MYCTs r over!!haish..dreaded tt wk leh...haha..cos i screwed up everything..mainly becos didnt finish e papers..die liao..my target of passing all subs cfm cannot meet de><..den still got prelims n alvl 2 go..wth!!!my studies r really getting cmi liao..haish..how how how??????:/ :x o.O

aiya..wateva..i cant change my fate anw..i can only wish 4 miracles...

buttt..i received an sms tt got me really distracted!!haha..cos e sms made my dae n i cant help but keep on reading it all over again!!lol!!even though it may seem v no big deal 2 me..it sort of boost my morale!:D:D..will talk abt it some other time:):)..

looking forward tmr 2 my so called peaceful haven tmr!!haha..will only b back on sun!:)n youth dae hol also!!great..finally can sleep like a pig!xD..

2010-04-24T21:54:00.002+08:00

if tt is wat u wan..it is ABSOLUTELY fine wif me..

ok lo..u win alr lo!!!if u wan things 2 turn out tis way den i will juz accept it la!!wth!!!!!!

if i am really tt bad den juz say so lo!!

muz u really go all out 2 hurt me??!!u keep telling me tt u noe u hav hurt me but u juz keep on doing it..wth??!!u hav juz contradicted urself u noe??!!

am i really someone whom u can trust..n vice versa??

mayb not

2010-04-01T20:52:00.002+08:00

a mth has passed..n i hav concluded sth..
1. 1 term has passed n i still dun hav e motivation 2 study..mayb i need 2 attend a motivational camp like e one in sec 4??o.O
2.my cca is getting us all super busy..which means i wont hav e time 2 study..plus e fact tt i am in charge of LJ once again..(ya i joined so tt my SGC wont look sooo pathetic..or at least..n i hav 2 pay e price by having 2 go down 2 SAM on fri tt will prolly end at 8??!!!omg..)
3.i am really tt selfish fren whom others shld complain abt n not me complaining abt them..(ya i guess ppl will go "bleah" upon hearing my name n BOOMZ..my reputation is tarnished juz like e one who coined e word in caps)
4.I A.M G.O.I.N.G T.O D.I.E C.O.S T.H.E.R.E R S.O.O.O.O.O M.A.N.Y T.H.I.N.G.S T.T I N.E.E.D 2 D.O B.U.T I D.U.N H.A.V E T.I.M.E 2 D.O N I E.N.D.E.D U.P S.A.C.R.I.F.I.C.I.N.G S.O.M.E O.F M.Y A.C.T.I.V.I.T.I.E.S C.O.S M.Y S.C.H.E.D.U.L.E I.S T.O.O P.A.C.K.E.D W.T.H!!!!!
5.pw results r gg 2 b out soon!!gahhh
6.my results r slipping...lalala..
7.i totally cant understand wat e tchers r saying in lects n tuts!!ohno..i tink they r speaking in greek!!
8.i seriously need 2 get a new phone cos my current one has attitude prob~
9.once again i am back 2 my usual self(is it a gd thing or bad thing:x)
10.i wanna finish my alevels n get out of sch quick quick!!cant stand tis kind of life anymore!!rarh!
ok..enough random ranting..me need b on task now..ciao

am i too selfish?

2010-02-26T20:59:00.002+08:00

woah..wonder how i managed 2 survive more than a mth on hiatus..XD..but i am typing tis only becos my loyal readers r bugging me 2 post!hahaha..they juz cant wait 2 see e nxt post lo..even though i tink my posts r super boringggggg n always emo emo de..lols..

i am getting more irritable lately..4 some reason..there is once when during break i was literally putting on a black face n not really talking 2 my frens..well yeah..actually i suddenly thot of sth..tis recurring prob..n i was quite pissed/upset..shall not elaborate too much on it..guess it is due 2 e stress tt has been piling up on me?hmm..wateva it is..i really cant tolerate those ppl who pissed me off..n i tink they r selfish..but recently i feel tt i may b worse than them..

was asked 2 b in charge of e class noticeboard..even though i am not e class leader..i did not accede 2 their request not becos my art is v gd or wat..but becos i can mayb contribute 2 e class in some way 4 e so called last time..n it was almost done..except 4 only 1 thing..e class goals..even though i was told tt i muz put in tt cos it is a necessary component..was not on e board..not becos i didnt read instructions..but it is actually due 2 e fact tt some idiot actually threw e poster away..it was put up only a few daes ago n it was gone in a flash:(..

i mean..mayb it was my fault tt i did not check e board everydae 2 make sure it was dere or tt i did not secure it enough..but seriously..who would expect it 2 drop or worse still got lost??e one who did e thing was pretty upset..n i had 2 keep apologising 2 her cos i dun feel gd..i noe tt she spent e whole nite doing it..which tt was wat made me feel even worse..i dun blame e person 4 throwing it away cos htere was no cupboard or anything 2 put e poster in though..but i still feel really sad abt it..i even wanted 2 do e poster myself as compensation..but she said tt she dun mind doing it..but..she is soo busy..if i were 2 keep asking her 2 do it den she may get really pissed off wif me..on e other hand if i do she may b unhappy cos her work could not b up on e board..i wish i could ignore abt tis thing..cos we dun really use tt classrm n we dun always look at e board 4 so called updates or wateva..but den ppl may tink tt i v bo chap:/..some more e colour combi of e things on e board v weird..n it also looks empty..haish..now idk if i shld ask her later again when she is more free??really leh..i feel tt my mindset may b too selfish..only thinking of e board w/o thinking of her..

argh..mayb i shld juz kiv tis thing 1st..n juz do wat i shld b doing now..

2010-01-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

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GAH!!I AM FREAKING PISSED RITE NOW..THKS 2 SOMEBODY WHO SPOILED MY MOOD!!>(..I WAS SUPPOSED 2 B IN A REALLY GOOD MOOD DUE 2 SOME C\FUN N COOL STUFF TT HAPPENED 2 ME N NOW THKS 2 WHOEVER I AM PISSED AT I M IN A FOUL MOOD..SO DUN BUG ME OR ELSE DUN BLAME ME IF I FLARE UP AT YOU EVEN IF U DID NOT DO ANYTHING WRONG!!!ZZZ!!

2010-01-01T18:51:00.002+08:00

happy new yr 2 everyone!!:D..n happy bdae 2 those jan babies..esp whose bdae is on 1 jan:)

looking back..i guess 2009 is one of e most turbulent yrs..trying 2 adapt 2 jc life which i tink by far is sucky..n honestly i dun really look forward 2 2010..cos i am really afraid tt those nightmares will recur again..n 4 some reason..i dun really feel good e few daes b4 2010..not becos i hav been sleeping late or wat..but becos past nightmares dating even from 2003 hav been coming back..tried getting rid of them but i failed..ah well..i sincerely hope tt 2010 will b a much better yr 4 me..wif e alevels n intensive mugging coming up..hmm..of course there r good times la..like crapping wif my ex classmates thru sms n stuff..juz tt i tink 2009 had more bad stuff than good..

anw e most impt thing is 2 love myself 4 who i am..n of course juz do my best in wateva i do..i believe tt by trusting more in God's love n grace will 2010 be better:)

2009-12-28T18:46:00.002+08:00

nvr blog 4 more than a mth le..seriously i was too busy 2 even blog nowadaes..haish..

as i hav mentioned in my prev post..i will only come back when i hav sth 2 blog here..soo i will prob juz gonna b really random 2 some ppl..but nevertheless i am juz gonna blog aniwaes..

prob most ppl dun noe abt tis yet..but i was away in japan 4 approx a wk:D..really fun travelling 2 various destinations in tokyo..n even venturing out 2 other places like kyoto n osaka:)..mines mostly free n easy..as in u plan ur own itinerary..1st time going on such trips..n i had long wanted 2 go japan le..haha..at least my wait is worthwhile:)..its quite fun when u dun need 2 follow such a fixed prog n end up having 2 wake up super early almost everydae..at least e prog can b changed..of course we went on a guided tour 2 mt fuji ..but tt is only 4 one dae n u can book it anytime:)..i shall not go into e details too much or else it may get really boring..n we took too many pics n i am pretty lazy 2 upload as usual..plus e super SLOW internet..gah..

n e world is simply too small..cos when i was checking in at e airport..i met my fren there..n den he happened 2 b gg 2 take e same plane as me..o.O..really surprised sia..den my parent went 2 talk 2 his father..lols..feel quite weird la..cos i really didnt expect tis 2 happen..xD..wateva..

anw i am soo dead now..there r simply too many things 2 b done..n sch reopening soon :(..i saw e timetable n i tink mon n fri sucks big time>.<

2009-11-19T21:38:00.002+08:00

had a long break from blogging..n tis may b my so called last post..unless i got sth interestsing 2 talk abt here..cos i gotta give it up 4 a long time soon due 2 commitments:D..anw nth much really happened lately..

went 2 e spore flyer yesterdae!!:D:D..omg..tt was an once-in-a lifetime experience k?;)..n if u tink i am so loaded as to pay $20 plus 4 a ticket den u r soo wrong!!haha..long story la..but den i got cheaper..heheh:)e night view was really nice..wif all e colourful lights n e landmarks being lit up:D..haha..my fren was taking photos constantly wif her cam which is really high tech sia..lols..xD..thk God there was only slight rain so at least e photos wont hav e unnecessary raindrops effect:p..gosh..n my mum was jealous when i told her my class gg marina barrage tis sat 4 SL..hahaha..cos we suddenly talked abt it up dere..

cant wait 4 tis sat..haha..i had heard so much abt it n finally i am gg:D..den nxt time i can b my family's tour guide..xD..n we r gg 2 hav class chalet in dec:)..my dad v nice leh..he let me stay overnite..even though i can only do so 4 one nite..but better than nth la;D..

oh..i realised how peer pressure can b soo powerful..n how frens can sometimes affect ur own decisions n vice versa..haha..i tink it is all abt how we overcome it lo..n how much we can resist it..esp if it is gt 2 do wif sth tt is nt good..haha..my recent experiences prove it..but i shall not list them all out here..simply too many..of course those r ok..

any gotta try squeeze some time out 4 myself..cos i will b super busy during e hols..trying not 2 b overly committed n stuff..n trying 2 take part in stuff tt i really like n i hav interest in it..haha..so yupp..tis is a post 4 those who wan read my blog posts but end up gg away frustrated cos e blog's not updated..lols..man..i did not regret my decision when i signed up 4 e open house facil:D..i really wanted 2 do tt when i got e email..heh..n i gotta help wif e banner painting 4 orientation..cool;D..finally i can get 2 see our work being hung somewhere;P..at least i dun need 2 b an ogl 2 help out at camp:D..which i tink is really time comsuming..like e ogls-2-be hav 2 help out 4 2 wks..excluding training..

ps..pardon my boring posts w/o pics..cos i dun hav time 2 upload e oh-so-many pics..n e internet is quite lag..so will take ages 2 upload..see ya:D

FREEDOM!!!!:D

2009-11-06T22:13:00.002+08:00

well..yupp..i hav nvr felt soo happy in my life..cos pw is finally over!!:D
ok..op 2dae was so-so..i mean i was too nervous during e thing..so i sorta stumbled a little..but anw its ok at last!!:):):)
n my group got external ppl come leh..like omg!we thot dere will only b e 2 aj tchers assessing us leh..n we got a shock when 3 stepped in..O.M.G..we were looking at each other wif tt wth we r gg die..ok lo..anw i tink my grp did quite a good job..albeit e nervousness..heheh:D
now..i am gg slack..b4 gg back 2 serious business(no..of course not pw!!rawr!!)..gotta chiong 2 get back wat i hav lost due 2 pw!T.T
anw if anyone mentions pw..south africa..carbon emissions..malaria..californian forest fires n wateva things related 2 e mentioned stuff again..i will REALLY make sure tt person is gonna get it from me!!rawr!!
well..at least pw nightmare is finally over..st last..so i can hav some peace in carrying out my daily activities..hahaha..
kk..nth much 2 say though..i am SO looking forward 2 e hols!!:D:D:D:D

2009-10-26T19:46:00.003+08:00

got back my results..n there is only one word 2 describe my results..HORRID
e only comforting thing is tt i managed 2 improve in most of my subjects..thk God:D
but den..i got 2 Us..which means..i did not meet e criteria 4 2h2 n 2h1 passes:x
was really disappointed..even aft moderation..i still did nt meet e criteria>.<
n i was really worried tt i get retained..but den..when my fren told me tt above 30 rankpts can still get promoted..i was relieved..but den..i was encouraged 2 drop one h2 sub to h1..n i REALLY dun wan 2 drop..cos i dun wan 2 regret l8r on..
n i am worried 4 my frens..esp those in grp D (those cfm kicked out of aj)..
but i wan thk God 4 a miracle..cos my fren was in grp D..but den she became in grp C (which is those who hav 2 retake n whether can stay in aj or not depends on ur results..n i tink even if u do well..also can hav option 2 retain)..
yupp..so we r gg give her intensive tuition..n make sure she gets promoted wif us..jiayou girl!!;D;D;D
n of course dere r ppl in grp A n B...those who hav 2 drop but get promoted n those who may get retained(i tink dere is retest also..)respectively..but i wonder abt those who take 3h2 n 1h1..i mean they cant possibly take 2h2 n 2h1 rite?
anw..those who hav 2 take retest..JIAYOUS!!!:D:D:D
i tink i was nearly in grp A or B..but i agree totally wif e phrase no news is good news:)..cos i was not informed 2 see e principal..cos those who r in any of e grps hav 2 see her:/..which means i am not in any grp..
wateva..i gotta focus on pw rite now..dun wanna tink abt my results anymore:X

:'(

2009-10-16T21:33:00.002+08:00

feeling quite terrible now~~even though there is still some stuffs 2 look forward 2..
well..happy deepavali!!:D..esp 2 e indians..haha..speaking of tt..i am most prob gg 2 my fren's hse 4 cele!!:D..spicy food n desserts!!lols..
ok i am gg 2 b really random at some parts..so forgive me if i sound weird..
anw watched tis show on okto on body art..as in those perm tattoos n wateva..n they show tis portion on how ppl actually use hot metal 2 draw designs on their skin..*ouch!!*den they mentioned abt despite all e horrid smell of burnt skin n ultra pain some still went 4 it cos e tattoos give them a new sense of identity..
hmm..i feel tt there r actually better ways of expressing our own personality other than tis..like seriously..i tink tis is pretty extreme..like 4 me i will definitely not go 4 it..i mean i cant stop others from doing it..but i tink e pain is not worth it..even though it may seem short term or very "exciting" so 2 speak..oh well..
n speaking of piercings n stuffs..i went 2 pierce my ears recently..n oh man..i tink it hurts at tt moment la!!omg..so much 4 beauty argh..i tink its more than juz ant bite lo!!i tink it seems like a bullet actually shot thru ur ears..owww~~..but oh well..at least its not as painful as other body art though..
ah..i tink aft promos r quite bad..like getting cooped wif most dreaded subj ever!!roar!!i will rather do hrs of maths n phy than 2 do even 1 hr of it la!!:(..haiz..juz wan get over tis quick!!R.A.W.R!!!!!

~temporary freedom~

2009-10-10T10:57:00.002+08:00

well~promos r alr over!!:D..now i can use e comp as much as i like:)..well at least 4 e moment..
but..i dun seem 2 b as happy as i shld..really..in fact..e percentage of my feelings after promos was only 45% happy..like i am not juz worried abt e grades..but also whether i can get on 2 nxt yr>.<..it is not tt i am obsessed wif good grades or wateva(i mean ppl definitely wan 2 hav them rite?)..but it is partly becos of my parents..
i mean..it is ok 2 hav high expectations of ur children..expecting them 2 grow up 2 become useful n wateva..but then..i tink parents shld understand tt if their children hav alr tried their best n yet they r unable 2 do things like complete e paper..den i tink they shld atencourage e children 2 work harder nxt yr or wateva..after al life is not juz abt grades rite??
but den..after my maths paper(which was really _____)..i told my parents tt i may not b able 2 pass overall due 2 e paper being ______..n u noe wat?my father gave me tis dun-give-me-tt-excuse look..n he asked me how much i got 4 midyr...n he said sth tt kinda shocked me..sth like dun use tt as an excuse..u cant afford 2 fail maths blahblah..when i told him many complained abt e paper..he sort of told me off n said n dun care abt e others..when i told him many did nt do well 4 midyr and also e estimated % of failures in cohort..esp my class..he said tt there r still ppl who did well=.=..he seemed 2 b hinting me tt why i cant b like those who did well>:(..aiya..i was so pissed off i felt like telling him who ask him 2 hav someone like me so stupid n slow in learning lo..den i felt insulted n hurt:'(..tt he dun seem 2 trust even his daughter:x
n yesterdae..when he asked me abt phys(which was also _____)...i told him e same thing as tt dae..he was said sarcastically oh why e sch made u all suffer..so poor thing-.-..man..my appetite was so spoilt i didnt finish my dinner..
i mean..i noe he meant well 4 me..but den i tink his tone n wat he said is really..
oh well..better dun tink too much..dun even wan tink abt results anw..

on hiatus:D

2009-09-11T20:47:00.002+08:00

sigh..dunno why i feel very jittery..which is not a good thing at all..n yupp..i am actually quite pissed off these few daes..but i juz dunno why i am liddat..or wat actually made me liddat as well..soo ironic la..but oh well~

actually nth much happened..juz e usual holidaes stuff..some outings etc etc..

n..i need 2 start becoming a full time mugger le..i got tis sudden urge 2 show ppl tt i am at least of some use wif a least a little bit of capability..n hopefully change some ppl's perception abt me:D..bye~~~

2009-09-05T11:18:00.000+08:00

quality does not equals 2 quantity:D

i dun really care;)

happy-ness:D

2009-08-31T21:07:00.004+08:00

omg..super happy 2dae..cos i got 2 go back 2 zhss after like soo long!!:D..haha..den i saw my frens!!;D..was super high in sch..n i was crapping wif e tchers;)..oh..n they r havin tchers' dae dinner 2nite!!so jealous sia..xD..so most of them actually went home..n some also rushing 2 go back home..so sisnt really talk 2 them..but we r quite lucky 2 b able 2 see most of them:D:D..

aww..my tchers very cute leh..xD..haha..they r still as cheerful as ever..really made my dae sia=D..oh..n we wen tmacs 4 lunch after tt..so sweet 2 hav them ard;D..hope i can get 2 go back nxt yr!!;P..i miss my sec sch tchers soo much sia!!;D

anw some pics..enjoy!:D

frens!!;D

my super caring n friendly geog tcher!!her concern still shows..which is great!!:D

my super enthu n caring phy tcher!!^^she really noes how 2 make phy lessons very interesting!!:D

my pretty n encouraging chinese tcher!!haha..deapite being very strict..she still wrote pretty long words of encouragement sometimes..n most of e time they r really unexpected!thks soo much!!:D

of course..how can i forget my macho n caring form tcher!!xD..i will seriously die 4 my maths w/o him sia!!;P

anw..to all my ex n current tchers out there..HAPPY TEACHER'S DAE!!^^(dunno if my tchers will see tis though..xD)

2009-08-28T20:34:00.004+08:00

internet's quite good 2dae..so shall crap here b4 i concentrate on my hmk..o.O

yes..my internet suck cos i was constantly getting disconnected despite e attempts 2 connect..so didnt manage 2 discuss pw online yesterdae..Dx..n i gotta redo my part..cos some parts dun make sense..rawr!!but of course..tis was ok compared 2 OP!!!it really gives me e creeps..i mean..i heard tt each one hav 2 ans a qn from e examiner..n den u hav 2 ans it urself..OMG..my part is alr screwed enough..den i am soo soo scared tt i cant ans e qn..>.<..i felt really insecure n afraid when i tink abt it..

ok i may b tinking too much..but honestly..i will go crazy if i dun vent it somewhere..n as i type tis out..i feel really uncomfortable inside..n i really dun feel good abt op n wr:(..i may b a wet blanket 2 some..but really..when i hav tis feeling..chances r i cant do well in them:/..i rmbed e day when i had 2 take my olevel cl results..n i had tis same feeling..n when i got it back..i didnt do well as i had expected..so..whenever i hav such feelings..it means something bad will happen..i really really hope tt i am wrong..like really..its very difficult..i really wan 2 get a B..or mayb A 4 pw..seriously..i am afraid 2 b one of those who get C..cos tis implies tt my efforts hav gone down e drain..

sigh..look like i hav 2 get back 2 my eom n wr..n hope tt i can get op off my head..4 now..

i tink u r juz plain immature..i mean..i noe i dun hav e right 2 judge others..cos we r all imperfect..n i may b immature as well..or perhaps even worse..but really..i feel tt u juz dun tink abt e consequences b4 u talk..really..u juz dun spare a thot 4 others..how others will feel hurt upon hearing it..we may not show it..but inside..we feel humiliated..really..some of us even pretend nth happened or simply ignore wat u say..but u hav alr hurt us indirectly..u tink u r really smart..u tink wateva u say is right n so we muz listen 2 u n such..but i tink we hav e right nt 2 listen 2 u..cos i feel tt u dun really deserve our respect..even though we r aware tt we shld respect u..

2009-08-25T20:46:00.003+08:00

i wan go back 2 zhss 4 tcher's dae!!!!!!!!!!!!:D:D:D

haha..managed 2 kope some photos 2dae..but not all la..nvr mind..i am gg 2 bug des 2 send all e class photos 2 us..xD..lol..who ask me 2 b so lao tu n dun create facebk acc..xD..if not i can go kope all e photos myself from his acc mah..xP..but it is ok..i shall remain tt way..only 4 now??xD..heehee..

omg..i cant wait 4 tchers dae sia!!i wan go back see my frensssss!!!!xP..so excited..haha..i also wan 2 see all my ex tchers!!aww~~lol..tinking of such stuffs really gets me on a high..even more effective than coffee..xD..hope they r doing fine..hmm:)

ok..i better not get too happy yet..still haven decide wat 2 get 4 e tchers..of course tt includes e current tchers duh..lol..haiz..i dunno if i got time 2 buy leh..sad sia..hope got some time tis wk lo..xD

ciao!!

2009-08-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

yayy..chem spa over liao!!;D;D..quite ok la..juz tt i am nt too sure abt certain qns:)anw jiayous 4 those who hav nt taken it yet:D..

anw outing 2 celebrate ym bdae was really fun!!haha..had nvr been soo happy le..deprived childhood..anw met ym n xt 2 buy cake..den we also went timezone!!omg..e last time i went was eons ago *ahem*..yupp..when i was still very small..lols..n i got bullied by them dere..o.O..cos there was tis drum thingy n ym made me choose e bdae song 4 her!!:o..den i hav 2 play it leh..omg..so embarrassing la!!:P

den we slacked at macs while waiting 4 jess 2 come along..haha..n i dunno why xt keep linking me wif jess la:/..den aft we went maimai hse..haha..1st time leh..den we keep talking abt some sch scandals;p..so all of us xcept ym went into e rm..n drew pics behind e jigsaw..ym so poor thing leh..very lonely..den dere was once when she came into e rm..n we were like omg 2 chased her out..phew!haha..den xt sabo me draw some..cos i frm va mah..haha..jess drew better than me lo..as usual..xD..but e jigsaw very nice leh..unicorn!!:D yupp..nth much happened aft tt..shall nt go into it..but yup..i hope all of us hav fun!!:D..oh ya..maimai muz get well soon hor..xD

gtg liao..hmk queue is getting longer~~~..typical dae indeed:X

i am nt a gd example 4 others 2 follow..
i am nt showing myself 2 others wat i shld b..
i hav let too many ppl down..n hav disappointed them along e way..
i juz dun hav e courage 2 apologise..
so i will juz hav 2 do it here..
i am juz soo unworthy:/

quick post..

2009-08-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

yupp..using my bro's laptop rite now..cos when i was using e desktop comp..e whole screen blanked out..n e cpu shut down>.<.argh..den i was trying 2 restart e comp like almost 10 times:X..i am not exaggerating though.cos i was in ivle downloading stuff n i was really despo 2 get back into my acc..oh well..was unsuccessful..n smsed my mum..den she told me 2 shut down e comp..n my dad will fix it when they come back..sigh:/..hope nth is lost in e comp..cos there r quite a lot of impt stuff in dere..but ya..i actually felt sth is wrong while using it..cos there is some weird smell(kinda like burnt metal)n also e cpu was really hot despite e short time period of comp use..wateva..was really frustrated..hmm..

phy spa was kinda screwed..but overall i tink i did ok..well hopefully..lets hope all of us will do well 4 chem spa:)..good luck ppl!:D

oh ya..i managed 2 pass napfa!!:D.haha..quite happy la..cos i seriously juz wan 2 get over it quick;)..but hey..i tink God really has good timing..cos when i failed twice..i was really worried abt my shuttle run..cos e floor at mph is really slippery..so it is pretty hard 4 me 2 carry it out..den when i had my retest..e tcher took me 2 e netball court..where e floor is rougher n easier 2 pass:D..woohoo..n yupp..i tink God created tis moment 2 help me pass:D..actually there is a long story behind tis whole thing..but due 2 personal reasons..i shall not elaborate too much on it..anw i want thk my frens 4 supporting me..like helpin me pass sit n reach by making me stretch like nuts..xD..

cant wait 4 tmr!!haha..gg 2 celebrate my fren bdae wif some other frens:D..cant wait 2 see my old frens again;D..anw happy bdae ym!:D

but argh..feel so demoralised when i saw e wr..gosh..sometimes i wonder..am i really tt stupid?as in..i juz seem 2 b unable 2 link evrything 2gether..n make e whole thing sound ok:/..sry 2 those who r in my grp..D:..i dun mean 2 b emo or anything..but seriously..i juz hav tis feeling..n i juz feel tt i am gg 2 cause everyone 2 score badly becos of e fact tt i suck at doing such stuffs:X..ok i noe tt certain parts may lead 2 me scoring differently from e others..but still..e grp comp takes up a larger percentage(i tink so??)..but wateva it is..i cant believe tt pw is gg2 affect where i want 2 go in uni:(..some courses tt i want 2 go 2 look at pw..omg..so sad..juz by tinking of it makes me lose my slp n appetite..Dx

i juz wana go out tmr n forget abt it temporarily..haha..seriously cant take it anymore>.<

2009-08-09T11:47:00.000+08:00

Happy bdae Singapore!!:D:D

ok..tmr is national dae!!which means holidaes..but wif debts 2 clear:/

finally completed e paper bag design n e kindness poster!!;D
they made my dae sia..xD
now it is back 2 serious business..

ok..aj concert quite sian leh..like e only thing tt kept me really entertained r e vids..some very hilarious..haahaa..xD
well..not very sure abt vids from other classes..but those i hav seen so far r good!!xD..n tt includes my class duh..xP
oh ya..good job suipeng:D..nxt yr if u r parade commander again den muz send tremors thruout aj wif ur super loud voice hor..xD

oh..n i heard tt e tchers in zhss r made 2 dance on stage..haha..so cool!!too bad cant get 2 watch it..aww..juz brought back memories last yr..e lower sec ppl were havin games or wateva..n e upper sec were asked 2 go 2 e hall 4 concert..lol..n initially we thot it is gg 2 b very sian..but hey.we found ourselves super high..esp us sec4s..n we were singing n dancing..haha..xD..yupp..we went crazy..n had loads of fun:D..n we even asked e choir 4 encore..cos they sang really well:)..haha..tt was e last national dae in zh lo..so sad..

all good things will come 2 an end somedae..n these will only b past memories..tis is simply inevitable..but e only thing we can do is 2 try recall them once in a while..esp when u r down..n also kept e things tt r able 2 bring them back..as reminders of e wonderful past..tt way..we can brighten up those dark daes:)

2009-07-31T21:10:00.001+08:00

ptm 2dae is..oh well..shall not talk abt it..:/
finally completed wr 1st draft:D..but we still hav wrf n eom 2nd draft..x(
wateva..i am juz looking forward 2 national dae!!holidaes!!;D
had been reading my fren blog..n hey hey..most of e posts actually relate 2 me as well!!haha..it really struck how we being in e same situation can mean tt we can understand each other's feelings leh..xD..n ya..nowsdaes i agree wif most of e posts..hahaha;)
man..i am seriously deprived of my slp lo..Dx..sad..soo much things 2 do n soo little time 2 do..:(
mayb i shld put certain things on hold 1st n do e most impt things 1st???oh wellll..

my mood is totally spoilt..

2009-07-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

sigh..sth happened..n it totally spoilt my mood completely Dx..now i juz cant seem 2 focus on wateva i am doing..like i was doing everything in a daze..n juz now..i was soo distracted..i simply juz dun feel like doing anything..n i was worried tt i will make stupid mistakes in my maths ans:/
anw my frens r also affected by tis incident..cheer up k?:D..we hav alr done our best..muz jian chi xia qu hor ;P..cheerios!!!;D
i guess we juz got 2 take things in our stride..n accept wateva comes our way..even if reality bites..wait..reality hav neither mouth nor teeth..so how can it bite?xD xD xD..but anw we muz press on n do our best!!yupp..so lets support each other n try harder nxt time yea? we can do it!!;D
parents tcher meeting tis fri..like omg..so fast!!ahhhh!!!*freak out freak out*

2009-07-24T19:51:00.000+08:00

really high 2dae..4 some reason..even though there r some hiccups:D

2dae was simply an xception;)

why why why?????

2009-07-23T20:03:00.000+08:00

omg omg omg..why is everything turning out tis way?i dun get it..i dun rmb doing such stuffs(or mayb i dun even do them at all)..n yet i receive tis kind of outcome/treatment/"reward"/blah blah blah..wat is tis man?!all tis juz does not make sense at all!!i dun understand how n why such things can happen 2 me..i mean..i noe there muz b a reason 4 tis 2 happen 2 me..but..i juz cannot stand it!!

D: Dx x( :/ >.< :( >:( :x :'(

hurt..insulted..angry..confused..helpless..lost..juz mixed feelings(mostly -ve..like duh-.-)

every cloud has a silver lining..mayb all tis is a blessing in disguise after all..hopefully..mayb i shld hav some +ve feelings??i dunno..i am not in a mood 2 feel tt way..inevitable..

Lord..wat shld i do?
give me e strength 2 face trials..
turn me 2wards u at all circumstances..
draw me nearer 2 u wif ur unfailing love n grace..hold me closer 2 u..embrace me in ur warm n loving arms..
i really really cannot live w/o u..dun forsake me pls..

2009-07-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

random bug juz hit me once again..
argh..pw really takes up loads of my precious time..when e time can b used 4 doing other stuffs:/
sigh..cant imagine wat grade will i get nxt yr..hmm..
better not tink too much now..gotta focus on pw 1st..grades r secondary..
wateva..

napfa retest on mon..sigh..i am worried not 4 my sit n reach..but shuttle run n inclined pull-ups(ironic..cos i failed sit n reach n passed others..o.O)
nvr mind..i will juz try my best;)..trust God!!:D
DISCLAIMER:if we fail napfa again(touchwood!)..den pls dun blame us or wat not juz becos u all cant play games becos of us(seriously..we also wan 2 play games..but if we fail den wat can we do..at least we noe tt we tried our best..)

mural painting tmr!!:)

2009-07-18T12:49:00.000+08:00

if there is a cup of water..would u look at e fact tt e cup is half full or half empty?or even both?

i cant rmb wat was my 1st ans..but i tink we should tink of it as half full..despite e fact tt diff ppl have diff perspectives..mayb becos when i dun wanna drink too much water(literally duh..)..den i will always say tt i only wanna drink half a cup of water..hmm..

but..how abt tis senario(ok..mayb tis is quite diff from e above scenario)?

if u fail 3 subjects n pass 2..would u only look at e subjects tt u fail n stay unhappy w/o doing anything 2 improve..or would u only look at e subjects tt u pass n be content tt at least u have passed some subs?or both?

hmm..i mean it is ok 2 tink abt e failed subs n focus on studying 4 e weaker subs n stuff..but..we should not brood over e failure n not do anything abt it at all..n of course..we should not b complacent tt we passed or done well..but we should cont 2 work hard..i dun really noe wat is my exact ans 2 e above qn though..but i noe tt i should not do nth abt e failed subs..n i should not b happy wif juz 2 passes..

we all need 2 buck up~jiayou;D

2009-07-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

我无法信任别人..

天真的自己真傻..

mess~

2009-07-15T15:36:00.000+08:00

everything tt happened ard me seem 2 b screwed up..D:

am i really a jinx?:x

r u really there 4 me?

i wonder..

i cant help but doubt..

>.<

2009-07-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

utterly disgusted rite now..n my mood is now totally spoilt:X

juz a ticking bomb tt might explode anytime..i am trying 2 lengthen e time 2 explosion..mayb till when i am ok enough 2 stop e timer..

WARNING:i will explode early if anyone "detonates" me rite now..

life is not 100% perfect

xD

2009-07-11T19:35:00.000+08:00

ok..juz some random post..nth much 2 blog actually..
as i looked thru one of my frens blog archives..i rmb e woderful memories tt we had 2gether..i mean..when we r in diff sec sch n stuff..we r too busy 2 even recall e good memories we had..den when we r "free"..den we somehow rmb how much fun we had 2gehter..e laughter..sadness..anger etc etc..;D
i tink..tt is becos absence makes e heart grow fonder..haha:)..mayb when i graduate from aj den i will recall e jc times more than zhss??lol..xD
but wateva it is..thks soooo much 4 e times we had 2gether..esp e good memories when we had sooo much fun n laughter..i really really enjoyed e times we had 2gether as frens..i could not afford 2 forget these memories..cos they were simply too precious 2 b thrown away..
once again..thk u 4 those memories!;)

2009-07-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

things have not been gg well..esp yesterdae..n i can only hope tt things will pick up 4 me soon..

nvr take mutual trust 4 granted..

i juz wanna get out of this facade tt surrounds e world..

我就是不明白..

2009-07-08T21:19:00.000+08:00

人生..就是那么的复杂:/

bored..

2009-07-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

went 2 check out sth juz now..n i am kinda disappointed..but..nvr mind..at least i knew i had tried my best..was actually prepared..but of course..tt feeling i am experiencing now juz cannot b avoided..but..considering e time constraints..i knew i had done my best:)..mayb i will grab e nxt opportunity tt comes up lo:D
anw..i am beginning 2 get worried 4 some reasons..mayb it is due 2 e fact tt i keep hearing -ve stuff abt our midyrs(sry ppl..i am not trying 2 deflate ur confidence or anything)..but anw..it is not tt i tink too much or wateva..i mean..it is only 15% of e paper rite?but..based on wat i heard from frens from other schs..e 15% is actually juz as impt..cos if midyrs r not done well or wateva..greater chances r u may not b able 2 cope 4 e other 85%..unless we pull up our socks like NOW..i mean..i feel tt now is really e time 2 buck up..i mean..it is ok if we do not do well 4 midyrs(it is over anw)..but most impt thing is..we should not look back n brood over it..we should all juz move on..JIA YOUS!!;D
shall not talk too much abt it..lest ppl tink i am paranoid..
better get back 2 other stuffs..ciao~

gone r those daes...

2009-07-05T21:37:00.000+08:00

aww..those great times 2gether..

miss those daes 2gether:)

zhss rock on!!:D
towards an outstanding institution..zhss our 2nd home
sounds familiar eh??;p

back......

2009-07-05T11:48:00.000+08:00

yepp..i am here 2 revive my dead blog..ok..it is not really dead la..i am actually cleaning e dust off e surface..haha..xP
too much things hav happened..n i tink if i were 2 talk abt it here..den tis post would seriously occupy e whole pg..lol;P..soo..i shall only talk abt certain things worth talking abt here..hmm..
midyrs over alr!!yayy!!:D..but i dunno why i dun feel tt happy leh..like aft e last paper..i wasnt in e mood 2 celebrate..like "jumping wif joy" n wat not..in fact..i feel tt even aft e exams..i simply cannot enjoy myself..perhaps it is becos of e debts tt i hav 2 pay..hmk!!argh!!:x..(i guess tt obsession comes from my fren ba xD)
i was too busy preparing 4 e exams..n ya..i didnt manage 2 finish my hmk..noooo..darn:/..n my nightmare is coming back again~..sigh..shall no talk abt it..cos tt freaked me out alot..so i tink if i am gonna talk abt it..i cannot imagine wat would happen..haha xD..sheesh..why cant tt nightmare come when i wanna lose wt or keep myself awake 2 rush thru hmk or sth?!..ahhh..why muz it come back aft my exams when i juz dun wanna tink abt anything n juz slp?!gosh..i had e same nightmare almost everydae!!shucks..:X..i tink if tis goes on..i would really b in IMH..nooo!!!x( *sob*
wateva..i should b "enjoying" my so-called holidae..n juz heck care..hmm..
jiayous 4 those who havent take their midyrs!!:D

my life is so:/

2009-06-04T11:13:00.000+08:00

juz wanna shut myself off from e outside world..n do wateva i want..n not b soo bothered by other ppl:D

yea..mayb i am crazy..but..tt is me;)

i luv tt feeling..serious:)

n ya..i will b on hiatus..juz in case ppl ask me why i nvr update or sth..busy~

jiayous 4 midyrs n pw ppl!!:D

till then when we see each other again~

last post 4 tis mth:)

2009-05-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

yayy..there was no mention of june hols pe remedial!!:D:D..haha..so yupp..i am gonna take tis opprtunity 2 train up my stamina;D..jiayous:D..but aiyo..hope i can make time 4 training lo..cos hav 2 prepare 4 midyr n cca D:..ok..juz gotta get over wif it lo xD..but ya..i may hav 2 sacrifice certain things 4 me 2 manage my time well..haiz x(..sorry 2 ppl whom i hav 2 "offend"..cos i seriously need 2 reset my priorities now :(..n as u noe..i hav lousy time management..even wif a timetable..i will somehow b so focused on studying 4 a sub tt i wont hav time 4 others Dx..
sch hols r finally here..which means i will b BUSYYY..ohno..n i am really tired rite now..sigh..

精诚所至，金石为开..你觉得在班上没有朋友，会不会是因为你本人太静了，你也不很主动，或许因为这样，大家也对你表现比较拘谨..试着让自己有一点改变，对学习，对班上，对同学等等..
hmm..i tink she makes sense afterall:)thks 4 ur kind advice..even though i tink u sound a little harsh:)

anyway..juz some pics 2 round off tis mth's post:D

soo busy lo!!

2009-05-28T22:41:00.000+08:00

haiz..finally managed 2 sorta finalise gpp:D..thk God sia:D..but wait..better not b too ahppy yet..cos still hav a long way 2 go:/..jiayou ba ppl;)
den hav many class tests lo..n midyr coming le D:..oh no!!time really flies:X..den jun hols really packed la..like e 1st 2 wks alr got make up lects..den got hmk hmk n more hmk..n den i will b away on e 3rd wk;D..n some more i hav cca..sigh..so busy lo..n i tink i may not hav time 4 other commitments..my schedule alr very packed leh..haiz..guess juz gotta get used 2 it ba..
oh well.better not talk too much here..gtg..

sometimes..life is selfish..u hav 2 fight 4 ur right n may hurt others in e process..but soon..u will realise tt life has 2 go on..n tt ppl will only tink abt themselves..soon..u will juz become numb 2 such hurt n unknowingly..

happie~~

2009-05-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

lalala~finally exhibition over le!!:D:D:D..den we can hav new proj coming up..haha..den wont feel so sian:D..hmm..wonder wat will we hav:)..hope it will b sth more interestin;)
anw yesterdae very busy leh..like we had 2 carry e artworks from e art rm 2 e lorry lo..some very heavy leh..ouch..den most of us girls hav 2 do e work lo><..but hey~tis shows tt we girls rock!!!!!hahaha..so guys..dun tink girls r incapable hor!! xD xD xD
we had 2 go 4 2 shifts-aft n nite..aft ended early..can go home slp;D..but nite time ended really late leh..omg..den my parents got pissed off..lols..
was supposed 2 reach sch by 8.30..den apparently someone was supposed 2 call us 2 report at 9.15 instead..>:(..damn angry la..make us go sch early w/o anyone informing us..anw went yck mrt walk walk..n crapped wif my frens:D..yayy..n i learnt quite a lot of stuff from them..like..i heard lotsa stuff tt i dunno..haha..mayb tis was a blessing in disguise..den we sat outside sch n emo~haha..tis time wif another fren who came l8r..lol..we look like we ran away from home :X..n cannot wait 4 lessons 2 start xP..den we say we r e 4 cats..LOL!!den got photog ppl come..den we become e 8 cats xD..
l8r e lorry came near e mph..our tcher ic helped us carry..haha..lessen our workload..wahh~luckily e weather was quite nice..n e sch very quiet..nice sia..
we hopped onto e lorry n our tcher drove us across aj square 2 foyer..haha..cos we lazy 2 walk:D;D:D;D..he rocks man!!!very dusty..but is was worth e ride..den we bring e art works 2 outside lib..we ended up using e moveable signboard tt says no entry xcept authorised vehicles as a trolley..hahaha..very creative sia~:D..yupp..
good job ppl!!u rock!!:D

my life is so screwed up..

2009-05-24T00:57:00.000+08:00

i dun get it..why muz u compare us wif others??i noe we may be in e wrong sometimes..but does tt give u e rite 2 compare us wif others?
i dun understand..u claim tt we r not as smart as others..
do u tink we can b like others?smart n such?
if u really hate us so much..why dun u juz be wif them n throw us one side?
i dislike it when u keep comparing us wif others..
we seem 2 b so insignificant..u sound like u wan 2 disown us..
u keep criticising us..n praising others..
those praises tt we get from u r rare..really..
n u r afraid tt after u praise us we get swell headed n den we make mistakes..
i admit we r liddat sometimes..
but u juz dunno tt tis is my form of motivation..2 cont wif life even if other ppl treat us like dirt..
now..i juz feel life is meaningless..when u dun treat us as well as b4
u seem 2 find us a thorn in e flesh..even though u still did a lot 4 us..
i wanna thk u 4 e sacrifices n wateva u had done 4 us..
but now..i seriously need 2 tell u tt u dun seem 2 like us..
haiz..so wat if others r smart?i dun tink u noe life is not abt studies..

2009-05-19T21:23:00.000+08:00

i dun intend 2 blog actually..but i really muz say tis..
u hav alr disappointed me..n u hav hurt me..
initially i felt a searing pain in my heart..n i wonder why u treat me e opp of how i hav treated u..
but now..i am numb 2 such pain..i seem 2 b immune 2 such pain..
n now..thks 2 u..i hav become stronger..more well trained in dealing wif pain n setbacks..esp those unexpected ones..
i muz really thks u 4 tt:D
i hav become a porcupine..protecting myself wif spikes n stinging those who hurt me..
i will luv 2 see u grit ur teeth wif pain after i give u a venomous sting..
cos u hav treated me like i dun exist..u pangseh-ed me..time n time again..
of course..there r times when u r nice 2 me..but now..
u r taking advantage of my kindness..u r soooo thick skinned..wow..
i am soo amazed at how u changed soo much..
i am surprised tt u hav become a diff person overnite..
i dun mean anyhting 2 u now..
so i might as well get away from u..b4 i get hurt even more..
no offense..but tis is wat u will get..
let me tell u..i will NOT get hurt once again:D
n yes..i will prove u wrong..tt even w/o u i can survive:D
i will juz lead my life wif ppl worth trusting instead of u..n i will definitely b happy:D..even if i really hav 2 live my life as a loner..i can still enjoy life's pleasures;D
u can get out of my life..i dun need u anw:)

wat am i gonna do??

2009-05-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

my life is topsy turvy now..n i dunno wat should i do 2 make everything rite once again..like wat it used 2 b..

xtremely tired..n i am at e verge of snapping..n tis is not even e end yet..

if only i can turn back time..

why??

2009-05-14T08:48:00.000+08:00

sometimes..i wonder..why do we hav 2 b so nice 2 ppl when u get e opp treatment from them in e end??sometimes..we dun get anything in return..or mayb even sacrifice sth juz 4 them..n we tink it is ok..but somehow..we regret it in e end..cos we feel tt we should get at least sth in return..to us..tt is juz normal..even though we r taught tt we should not get anything in return..e phrase hao xin ren hui you fu bao seems untrue nowadaes..in tis world..of course there r xceptions..but..sigh..tis actually happens most of e time..sadly..n it is natural 2 feel unhappy tt u hav done soo much 4 someone but u dun seem 2 get anything in e end..tt is life:X

as i walk alone..i tink 2 myself..is it worth being sooo nice 2 some ppl when they treat u as if u dun exist..i wonder..of course as i said..there r xceptions..but most of e time..it happens=.=..mayb tt is why i had become really hostile..like i always hav tis serious face..mayb i really hav become a porcupine..poking at others wif my spikes or showing them off..n chasing ppl away..mayb i am really tt unfriendly..it is juz tt i only realised it now..besides..wat happened 2dae also confirmed tis..i guess tis is juz my character n upbringing o.O

wat is wrong wif e world nowadaes???

2009-05-11T14:27:00.000+08:00

sigh..i dun get it..when my frens move on..they become soo active in sch stuffs suddenly..like they participate in soo many activities out of e blue??i mean..i am not saying tt it is not a good thing..being active is good la..but..i cannot understand..we should b setting our priorities rite..i tink tt certain things r much impt than those activities..so why r we focusing too much on such stuffs??i may b immature..i may not noe wat is good 4 me..like wat benefits do i get..blah blah blah..mayb tt is becos i hav poor time management..tt is why i feel tt my frens r simply doing too much..i dunno..haiz..mayb i dun hav e courage 2 take up soo many activities..fearing tt i will b wasting more time when i alr hav soo little time..sorry 2 those who r offended by tis post..my mind is not clear rite now..juz take it tt i am talking nonsense ba..
when i was in LJ comm..i was not prepared 2 stay back in sch late 4 meetings..n gg back home late..so when my frens asked me if i am gg 4 exco..i told em no..cos i feared tt if i get in..den i hav 2 stay back pretty late thruout my 2 yrs..n i was not prepared or willing 2 do so..cos i had xperienced tis 1st hand..i am not saying tt i dun wan contribute 2 VA..i dun mind being in some sort of events comm occasionally..like LJ comm..but..not when i hav 2 manage e whole cca n get sressed up..i am not e type who can tahan stress..i juz wan 2 do things at my own pace..so ya..i dun wanna b preoccupied by too much stuffs..cos i really need some free time of my own..2 juz relax n forget abt everything..even though tis may seem impossible now..

my life is totally screwed up..

2009-05-08T22:23:00.000+08:00

things r not good 4 me nowadaes..i mean..i noe i should not b saying tis..cos my blog is not supposed 2 b sad all along n stuff..but really..things r not picking up..in fact..there is one of e daes where i had a string of unfortunate incidents tt hapened 2 me..all in a dae:/
failed napfa..4 e 1st time in my life..ppl got a shock when i told em i failed..cos htey dun expect a seemingly fit person like me 2 fail..sure..i dun care wat they tink..i dun care if i fail or not..it is juz tt i cant stand e fact of not being able 2 pass..worst still..i only failed sit n reach by 1cm-.-..like..wth..all becos of a stupid 1cm i had 2 go 4 stupid pe remedial during june hols>.<..n i hav 2 retake all 5 stations:/..was pretty upset n angry wif myself 4 not being able 2 stretch 4 juz 1cm..even if it means breaking my back bone..where e hell is my so-called perserverance??!!darn..but anyway..it may b a blessing in disguise..cos i also did not so well some of my other stations..so mayb tis is an opportunity 2 start training 4 e long mths b4 retest..but..i dun wan 2 go 4 remedial becos i only failed marginally n it is pointless 4 me 2 go..worst still..they may even train us 4 other stations which i am alr strong in n dun need add practice=.=..oh well..lets hope things change 4 e better..
den..we got back chem..n i failed..tis was not surprising actually..cos i expected it..sort of..darn:/
n when i went home by bus..i was very tired..so i slept on e bus..den i missed my stop Dx..e only consolation is tt i managed 2 wake up on time..n alighted at e bus stop after my supposed stop on time..so i only need 2 walk a little more home..
so ya..a lot of bad stuffs happened..haiz..ever since i stepped into aj..it seems tt my life is a complete mess..totally screwed up..i wonder..r ppl in jcs really cursed??i dunno abt those in polys though..they may or may not b juz as bad..but really..i tink jc life is tt screwed up..on e other hand..i dun tink i am suited 4 poly..cos there r lotsa projects..which i dun really like..esp if u very unlucky get some slackers D:..
n..pw sucks..waste of my time effort n money x(

i juz cannot understand..

2009-05-02T18:00:00.000+08:00

i am very sure tt u hav changed..wats wrong wif u??u r not e one whom i noe..
i dun get it..u hav changed soo much..i dun even noe if u r REALLY my fren or not..
i almost cannot recognise u..omg Dx
juz cannot stand it..its like..i dunno..ur true colours r finally showing..but everything seems 2 b changing soo fast..i am juz not used 2 it..i feel tt u r distant..almost invisible:(
mayb tts becos i am a hypocrite..trying not 2 show my true colours??i guess so..i noe ppl who seemed 2 b close 2 me r saying i am one..
i gotta admit tt i may b one..cos i try 2 b nice 2 ppl even when they treat me horribly..but..
I TINK THOSE BUNCH OF IDIOTS R WORST THAN HYPOCRITES,COS THEY CALL OTHERS HYPOCRITES WHEN ACTUALLY THEY THEMSELVES R HYPOCRITES!!!THEY R SO "NICE" 2 ME EVEN IF THEY ACTUALLY HATE ME 2 E CORE!!WATS E DIFF??WAT RIGHT DO THEY HAV 2 SAY SUCH THINGS ABT ME OR OTHERS??WATS SOOO GREAT ABT THEM MAN??
COME ON LA..GIVE ME A BREAK CAN??I AM SICK N TIRED OF U!!!!AT LEAST I DUN ANYHOW CALL PPL HYPOCRITES!I AM NOT SAYING I AM GREAT OR WAT..BUT GET TIS INTO UR BLOATED HEADS:DUN TINK U R TT GOOD HOR!!Dx Dx Dx
ps.if u r not happy wif me..juz click on e red x button at e top right..

life is juz not e way u wan it..

2009-04-25T22:54:00.000+08:00

sigh..nowadaes things r not wat i expect..like..i dunno..there r of course gd n bad surprises..
my frens n i got a rude shock during cca..cos our art piece was destroyed wehn someone placed his/her stuff on top of it:X..so we had 2 redo certain parts again..lucky cherlynn helped me..thks soo much once again:D..n we managed 2 finish it on time..n e l8r part was FUN!!!:D..we played games:D..thks 2 e comm who organised it:D..n my fren thot it was me who organise it xD..haha..sure not me lo..i am not so good in coming wif such fun games xD xD
played wacko..den e forfeit was banana dance..quite funny 2 watch e pair who kena perform..haha..den we played a game in grps..where we had 2 randomly hold diff ppl hands n try 2 untie e so called knot..my grp failed a few times..but in e end we managed 2 untie ourselves in abt 1 min!!haha..good job ppl;D..too bad we were not e 1st grp 2 finish..aww..
we sat in a circle on chairs..n 1 person will hav 2 stand..such tt in e circle there is 1 extra chair w/o anyone sitting on it..e others will hav 2 make sure e person does not get 2 sit on any empty chair..haha..den e pres n some others kena..haha..they hav 2 use their butts 2 write visual arts..lol..kept laughing:P..n we bully them..haha..esp e pres;P;P;P
yup..but there were bad stuffs tt happened lately..shall not talk too much into it..cos tis is not e rite place 2 say it:/

everyone has his/her own dark secrets tt we wont wanna say..n i noe some of these secrets r definitely abt something..i dun tink i would wanna noe wat is it abt..cos i dun hav a good feeling abt tis:/

nostalgia

2009-04-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

sigh..i miss my frens from 4e1'08 lo..juz post some random pics..
grad dae 08:D

actually..there were supposed 2 b more pics..but my fren has not sent me those pics till now..argh!!so..i only hav 2 pics..sigh..
anyway..more pics!!:D

hey girl..i will definitely miss e times tt we had 2gether..i tink we hav an affinity
wif each other..cos we managed 2 do lotsa stuff 2gether..i will rmb e happy times we had 2gether..thks 4 being such a patient n wonderful fren..esp when u hav 2 always tolerate my nonsense n lame jokes;)..i noe i hav crossed over e limit sometimes..i might even hav hurt u accidentally..but i juz wanna tell u its becos i treat u as my fren..tt is why i am more willing 2 show most or all of my so called true self..cos i trusted u e most..we may hav taken diff paths..but i hope tt we can keep in contact..n mayb meet up somedae??n crap abt all e stuffs under e sun:D..i will rmb e times when u hav become crazy becos of me..joking wif me n such..i rmb e crazy stuffs tt we hav done 2gether..n e 1st dae of sch when u were e 1st new fren 2 talk 2 me;D
thk u once again..4 being wif me always..esp when i need u most:D:D:D..God bless:):)

bleah..

2009-04-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

sometimes..we cannot control our destiny..we juz cant change e way we live..sigh..but i may b wrong..i dunno..
feeling very confused right now..i am accused of doing sth tt i didnt do..well..sort of..mayb i did do tt n pissed them off..but seriously..i REALLY cannot rmb anything like tt..haiz..mayb my memory is really tt bad??hope not..
gotta catch up real soon..now is unlike e past..last time..i am quite ok with lessons..i can at least understand most of e stuff..esp maths..of course not all e time though..now?i totally cannot understand certain topics..i stare at e notes 4 soo long still feel so blur..
i still feel tt my sec sch tchers r much better than jc tchers..they r e ideal tchers lo..strict yet caring..n at least i can understand wat they teach..most of e time..n u dun really hav probs wif hmk..like..u can finish very fast..now tutorials r dar difficult..stare at e qns soo long n yet u cannot understand e qns or u dunno wat 2 do..in e end..after many hrs..u didnt manage 2 finish..or mayb nvr do at all..feel so unproductive..e time so called wasted can actually b used 2 do other stuffs x(
oh well..better not talk too much..schedule is totally packed:(..gotta try b more productive now(ya rite)..rawr!!D:

wahaha..

2009-04-12T13:24:00.000+08:00

ok..i noe my past posts r pretty emo..cos i hav been keeping e past n current grievances inside me..so i tink i should post them here..or else i will really end up in IMH..lol..cos there r some stuffs that had happened n i was pretty pissed off by those ppl..nah..shall not elaborate cos i am too angry 2 bring it up Dx
anyway..shall try 2 post sth more happy here..hahaha..anw family dae a wk ago was a little sian..cos we had 2 stay in sch 4 e whole dae..n there was actually nth much tt u can do xcept 2 sit ard e stall or walk ard..sigh..i did sth on tt dae i tink nobody actually knew..so i shall juz keep it a secret..sshhh;P..
but overall..we did a gd job in manning e stall..n i saw some ex-zhssrians!!!gosh..it was nice 2 see some of them..esp those whom i knew..i happened 2 see one downstairs n i was shrieking down at her..hahaa..so nice 2see some of them again..too bad i didnt invite any frens along..sad..oh well..it was fun 2 see some of our teachers getting dunked..haha..devil xP..like our ex og tutor n my cca in charge..hahaha..kudos 4 their courage..i will seriously back off if someone tried 2 dunk me xD xD xD..managed 2 catch up wif my fren:D..cos we had not talked 4 a looonnngg time..we only managed 2 say hi in sch most of e time..
n LJ was pretty enriching..cos i learnt tt it was not easy being e guide lo..some ppl dun even wan 2 listen..which is pretty sad..i noe it is very diff 2 appreciate art..cos i am one of them(very ironic)..it is ok if they dun understand but dun ask or they forget eveything at e end..but i tink they should at least give us e respect n at least show tt u r listening..i tink i dun really do a gd job as a guide..cos i did not make wateva i sae interesting..esp if my info is dry..sorry..i dunno how 2 make interesting presentations anyway..but i am glad tt e tchers like e keychains la..haha..at least our efforts paid off..n i gotta admit they r cute!!:D 3 cheers 4 LJ comm n art club!!woots!!:D:D:D
btw..has anyone found e summary table 4 econs??i cannot find in ivle leh!!HELP!!!
i am gonna b so dead..i am having lousy time management..argh!!
i juz dun understand..u hav changed..i cant figure out wat happened 2 u n why hav u become tis way..u r juz out 2 ruin urself n ppl ard u

oh..life..

2009-04-10T13:43:00.000+08:00

i tink u ony treat me like a substitute n a toy..
i dun mean anything 2 u at all..
i only mean sth 2 u becos i help u when u need help..or becos u can hav a sense of satsifaction upon helping me when i need help
when u r having a time of ur life wif others..u throw me one side..not considering my feelings at all..
like hello??!!i am a human..i hav feelings juz like u!!
wat if i also ignore u??how would u feel??
i had tried 2 include u in almost everything i do..but..oh well..u juz dun care a darn abt my feelings at all..u ended up leaving me out..(hao xin mei hao bao)
so i hav e rite not 2 care abt ur feelings..i dun care if u tink i am a wet blanket..or even if i am a jinx..:D..since u also dun care if i would feel awkward or not..
u r e type who xi xin yan jiu..got sth new only den dun wan sth old..
u juz luv 2 take advantage of me..am i so good 2 b bullied??!!
juz becos i got bullied in my pri sch b4 does not mean tt u hav 2 hurt me AGAIN rite??!!u r juz adding salt 2 my wounds..dun u even noe tt??!!
i dun tink u will noe anyway..cos u juz cant b bothered-.-
i may b wrong..i may even b like u in some way..
but let me tell u..u r juz being insensitive n cold hearted..get it??:D
i dun care if i am a loner or not..cos i tink tis is wat i am meant 2 b..
i am not angry becos i am e odd one out..but becos u show urself 2 b insensitive..
FINE!!if u dun like me or u wan me 2 get out of ur life..SAY SO EARLIER LA!!!..AT LEAST TT WILL NOT HURT ME FURTHER!!WHY DO U WAN 2 TORTURE ME??!!Dx
i feel like going down on my knees n beg u 2 juz GET OUT OF MY LIFE MAN!!>.<
n let me u another thing..I AM SO DISAPPOINTED IN U!!!!!WAT KIND OF A FREN R U???!!!D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:

tis is just not me..

2009-04-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

i am just not myself nowadaes
i am just not feeling e way i should
i feel tt i am e total opp of wat i used 2 b
i feel tt i am a hypocrite..like wat some ppl actually said abt me
i thot i can prove em wrong
i thot i wont change so easily unlike some ppl
but i tink wat those ppl said abt me being hypocritical is soo true..
but i tink tt i actually change soo much..more -vely than +vely..
i may have hav changed soo much more -vely than i hav imagined
i may even hav become a dread/thorn in e flesh/dirt/slime/anything tt is gross/disgusting/dirty etc etc etc 2 everyone whom i hav met..
i guess i am actually meant 2 b like those things mentioned above..
i guess i am supposed 2 b a lone freak ostracised/disliked/hated by others..
i put on a pretence..being someone else instead of being juz me..
i put on a mask..pretending 2 b someone "nice" n entertaining..
i assumed tt by doing so can please more ppl..mayb even make more frens..
i assumed tt i can make myself happy by making ppl laugh like crazy at my super lame jokes
but i tink i ended up pissing more ppl off..getting offended at my jokes
but i tink tt is when e phrases"empty vessel makes e most noise" n "silence is golden"are TOTALLY true..
so i tink i should juz control my horrible mouth n SHUT UP(or mayb talk less 4 a start)..
so i tink i should juz heck care n show others who i really am..
tt is e way i am supposed 2 b..silent..not humourous n entertaining..etc..etc..etc
tt should b e way i am meant 2 lead my lone life..get stuck in my own world n shut myself off from others..
who cares a darn abt my life anyway???
who cares if i am a loner or not..cos everyone else will b leading their own lives wif their own frens n families..n i dun hav e rite 2 interfere wif their lives..
i juz cannot trust anyone..not even those whor close 2 me(sorry 2 those whom i hav offended in some way or another)
i juz cannot b someone else..i am sick n tired of having 2 act a totally diff person..i wan 2 stop all tis pretence n be myself..
i wan 2 snap out of my moooody mood n lead life e way i wan it..
i wan 2 stop always being in a horribly baaaad mood becos i am upset of trying 2 tink of ways 2 make ppl happy n not being satisfied later cos i juz cant constantly please them..it is simply draining away my time n effort..
i wish i can juz go 2 some quiet n high place far far away n SCREAM!!(n of course admire e beautiful sceneries at e bottom)
i wish i could do wat i always wanted 2 do..like curling at a cosy corner of my room n make cute n pretty handicrafts instead of always getting cooped up in sch or at home mugging everydae n getting stressed up by lousy results or heavy workload or e too-fast pace as a result..provided if i got a choice n unlimited time..0 opp cost of time tt is..(actually i am ok wif studying provided if i am allowed 2 study at my own pace..lol..since when i hav become a study freak??!!oh no!!)
in short,i dun care if ppl like me e way i am or not..
in short,i wan 2 stop bearing e burden of being someone else..cos now i am getting REALLY tired n upset abt not being me
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..x(

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2009-04-03T19:12:00.000+08:00

haha..dunno wat 2 put 4 e title so i will juz leave it tis way..lol xD
yesterdae was 10/09's bdae..haha..quite interesting lo..cos we were supposed 2 hav mass civics..but we ended up crapping among ourselves n also taking photos..cos there was almost nobody in e audi..so we had e aircon n space 2 ourselves..hahaha..but e photos r not wif me..lol..
den we went 2 home room..bu tour pdg tutor not there..so e class played violence game..haha..everyone got hit until pain sia..haha..very fun leh..;D;D
family dae tis sun!!cannot wait!!:D

busy 2 daes..

2009-03-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

yeasterdae went 4 fol..haha..joined jewellery making..cos i lurved hands on activities mah..n i juz wanted 2 fulfill my wish of learning how 2 make jewellery..tis wish was made quite a long time ago..but becos of time constraints(partly becos of cost also)..i didnt join any..haha:D..so tis is wat i call golden chance..lol;D
anyway..it was quite fun..n interestingly..nobody wanted 2 go 4 break..cos everyone concentrating on making..haha..so e trainer dismissed us early..but..i dun mind staying back longer leh..den can make more earrings n bracelets..hahaha:D..i managed 2 express my so called creativity lo..haha..i guess tt was hidden talent..lols xD.. but i lazy 2 post e pics la..heehee..mayb when i am more free or wateva den post lo..but i guess tis will b juz an empty promise ba..n ya..e trainer was a guy..haha..we got a shock..cos we didnt expect it..but he did a great job in making some earrings la..haha:D
actually e earrings r made 4 fun..cos i didnt pierce my ears..but it is ok..i can give any as gifts or mayb..go pierce my ears..hahaha..gosh..see 1st ba..but i managed 2 make a bracelet cum necklace:D:D:D
2dae resilience workshop is quite fun as well..managed 2 try out some stations, esp e high elements;D..n i managed 2 temporarily overcome my fear of heights by walking on e rope 4 e 1st time wif my fren..very scary:S..but theres a sense of satifaction after doing it..juz cannot believe tt i actually did it sia;P;P;P..den we r also very high..we kept cheering like crazy..n we even danced e orientation dance "its gonna b me" wif another class..hahaa..so cool..i am surprised tt someone actually rmb e whole thing..so we juz followed..can only rmb e chorus n some small parts;)..yupp..tt is about it..very tired now..gotta slp soon..ciao~

sch tmr!!yikes!!

2009-03-22T13:53:00.000+08:00

man..time flies..sch is starting again!!argh!!n yepp..i sort of cannot wait 2 see how my phy n chem tchers look like..whether they r nice etc etc..esp e phy one who happened 2 b my form tcher..haha..but i tink i will sorta miss our current phy n chem tchers..cos they r quite nice ppl..sigh..n i am not so used 2 having new tchers all of a sudden D:
cannot wait 2 see how e sch foyer looks like..cos my frens took time off their hols 2decorate it 4 aesthetics wk..man..they seriously rock:D..but i neva help them..cos i still hav 2 do e LJ proj leh..somemore i am in committee._.lols..but e ppl in e comm quite nice la..so i dun mind working wif them..haha:D..but then..i hav 2 stay back tis tues 4 e meeting at 5pm..yikes..tt means i cannot go home yet x(..n i hav 2 mug in e library again..rawr=.=..i dun wan 2 wait so long 4 e meeting 2 start leh..nvr mind..tis is going 2 b juz temp..hopefully wont hav so amny more meetings 2 go..
but i did not regret being in e comm..cos even though e opp cost is e time tt can b used 4 hmk n rev(haha..econs xD)..i will b able 2 plan e prog 2gether wif my frens..n we sometimes joke abt random stuffs..haha..;D

we came up wif 5 designs each 4 5 types of key chains 4 LJ..haha..n 3 of my designs got choosen!!:D..quite honoured..cos my designs will b made into real keychains:D..but e above designs r juz rough sketches..e final touchups r done by my fren..n sth funny happened..i got tis design(not in e above pic) tt was not choosen by e majority of e comm ppl..n my tcher-in-charge was e only one who chose it..lol..when e grp leader asked us who wan my design..he was e only 1 who raised his hand xD..den everyone was laughing;P..but i gotta admit tt my other fren did a great job in designing e 2 other types of keychains..they r really nice k;D..n they said my sketches r nice;D..happy sia..btw..e titles r e names of e art pieces done by e actual artists themselves..e keychain designs only rep e actual artworks..lol:D
gotta go le..dun wan 2 slack now..heehee..going 2 become a full time mugger soon..hahaha;D

hols hols

2009-03-18T17:00:00.000+08:00

went back sch 4 art workshop..actually it is not really workshop la..basically we r made 2 complete our art pieces 4 e art exhibition during 25th anniversary..so yepp..my group managed 2 complete it..yayy:D..finally sia;D..lurved it man!!i tink we did a great job in making e art piece so nice:D..good job ppl!!xD.den after tt we r bored..den we came up wif designs 4 e wall mural outside tennis court..haha..i dun really hav inspiration la..n my drawing kinda suck BIG time..so juz drew tennis rackets n ball..n added some words like health sports n lifestyle etc..lol..cosider it as an achievement tt i came up wif sth..lol xD
tmr got e fol dryrun..woots..hope my seniors can do a good job teaching us:D..n yepp..lets oso hope tt it will b fun;)
den stayed back 4 LJ comm meeting..was asked 2 write mins..haha..cos i am one of e admin ics:D..dunno if i make e rite choice of joining..cos we hav 2 stay back again tis comin tues at 5..yikes..tt means i hav 2 stay in sch n mug..lol..but nvr mind la..only temp mah..i tink..now gotta type out n submit asap..dunno wat 2 type leh..luckily got someoone 2 edit 4 me:D
managed 2 finish my hmk..except 4 phy ivle quiz n some rev 2 catch up..yikes D:..hav phobia of tt..cos i spent 32 hrs doing a quiz on ivle b4 n den i only got 6 out of 10..wth x(..cos i was actually doing e quiz n den i saved it 2 cont next dae cos it was late n i dun feel like doing..n i thought e timer will stop ticking after i save n exit quiz-.-..den i nearly fainted when i saw e summary wst e nxt dae after completing e quiz=.="..n i thot i heard sth like there will b bonus marks during promo exam 2 b given 2 us if we got do online quiz..dunno if muz get full marks or wat 4 e quiz or not:X
oh well..juz gotta live wif it lo..if they dun wan 2 give bonus marks den juz accept it lo=__=

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-03-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

oh man..i tink my life sucks..yeah..very hard 2 explain la..cannot b explained in words aloneD:..juz feel very sian n such..juz feel tt i am some freak who should not b on earth in e 1st place x(..heheh..now i am not facing economic recession now..but social political educational n emotional recession..haha..i tink there is no such thing la..but ya..i tink tt is wat i am feeling now..it is juz a summary..if u wan 2 noe details den i am sorry 2 sae tt i cant explain..lol>.<
but yepp..art club really made my dae..cos we had fun doing art pieces:D..n yea..it juz gives u a sense of accomplishment;D..serious..i am not promoting art club or watsoeva la ok..but really..i tink it is sth diff from sch..in sch i take science subjs except econs..n i tink it is really a switch from my so called specialisation..haha..
gonna hav some workshops during e hols..argh.i am deprived of my slp><..but it is ok..cos i tink e workshops will b fun..n i heard 2 of e fol workshops r conducted by my seniors:D..n htey r doing dry run on us;P..haha..cool..cos we dun need 2 pay n oso we can choose one:D..choose doll making over manga..lolxD..i noe very childish la..but i prefer hands on crafts 2 drawing..tt is why..hahaha
hols comin le..can sleep more..haha..but also means hav 2 revise..yikesDx..no choice la..juz gotta face it lo:)..jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!!!!!!!!xP

life..

2009-03-07T21:26:00.000+08:00

well..ya..i am supposed 2 b revising..yet i am slacking here:X
congrats 2 those who do well..n 2 those who didnt..muz jia you later k?dun give up:D
went nanolab yesterdae..so cool:D..everything is practically nano..lols..n someone suggested taking photos..cos we r wearing tis cute googles..man..i feel weird..cos i look like a fly..heehee..then we started camwhoring..didnt manage 2 take enough pics..but beta than nothing:D..lols..i was lauhging when i saw e pics:P
den went 2 celebrate my bdae wif some of my classmates:D..2 of my frens dropped by sch cantten 2 get chocs 4 me..ahaha..my fav:)thks simin n abba:D..den bumped into my econs tcher..n someone told her my bdae is dae b4 yesterdae o.0..but anyway..lol.thks miss lee 4 e well wishes;D..thks 4 treating me:D..n my fren of course..cos our bdae onli a few daes away from me;P..my classmates rawk man!!i thot e lunch is onli a few of us..didnt expect e pretty good turnout..haha..thks a million ppl!!:D..n they let me choose where i want 2 go..n i feel quite bad..cos i scared if i choose e wrong place then not convenient 4 some of them..so in e end..went j8 lo..cos some of them gg back aj..so more convenient..n my fren also wan 2 go library..so j8 seemed 2 b e bez choice..initially wan 2 go kfc..but apparently too crowded..no place 2 sit 10 of us:X..so went pizza hut instead..hav 2 wait 4 a long time..sorry ppl 4 making u all wait wif rumbling stomachs:X..n my classmate had 2 miss looking at alevel results becos of me..so sorry leh:S

My Big Day Is Finally Here!!!!

2009-03-05T19:15:00.000+08:00

haha..2dae is really a special dae 4 me..no..i am NOT getting married..lols..but ya..tt is e dae 2 celebrate my sweet 17!!yayy..i wanna thk a lot of ppl 4 making tis dae so enjoyable..thks xt n ym 4 e cute cute toy..hahaha..luv it loads!:D..n of course..i would like 2 thk my class 4 singing e bdae song:P..even though i was pretty shy initially until i want run out of e class:D..heehee..n also some of my frens 4 e thoughtful smses;D..sorry there r quite a number of names 2 b mentioned..so i shall juz leave tt out-.-man..i tink my frens kinda rock..heehee..of course..how can i forget those ppl who wished me happie bdae in class..haha:D..some of them even kept repeating it lo..hahaha..so funny;Pi juz hope my frens wont be selfish when it comes 2 studies..lol..
on a serious note..good luck 2 those ppl tajing alevel results..haha..no matter wat u all get..dun b complacent or saddened..life still has 2 go on..hope u all will get into e uni course of ur choice:D..

jc jc jc jc..

2009-03-01T02:32:00.000+08:00

well..things hav been happrning lately..n i was pretty busy..so ya..i may even go 2 e extent of posting only once per mth..lols...
lectures n tutorials start le..i tink some of e lecturers r quite..oh well..better not sae it..but i can only sae some of e lectures very confusing leh..cos some of e notes got mistakes:x..den when i ask my tutor 2 explain..he told me it is typo error=.=..lol..no wonder i juz felt sth is wrong wif e notes..argh..n i dun understand some parts leh>:(..die..n my frens ard me seem 2 hav no prob leh..sigh:S..hope i will b able 2 catch up soon..:D
my chem n phy teachers on maternity leave leh..n e chem one happened 2 b my cca teacher in charge leh(i tink)..then e phy one is our form teacher..so got relief teachers..n both happened 2 b ex ajcians..lol..so coincidential..hahaha..hope e teachers dun come back wif post natal depression n start venting their frustration on us..heheh..xP..speakiing of chem..i actaually did my hmk on e qn paper itself instead of on foolscap..then when i realised muz hand in..i was like..yikes..how come i was e only one who did not even noe tt we had 2 hand in our work??!!..i wa slike..oh no..i was flustered n quickly transferred everything on foolscap-.-..luckily managed 2 finish..den my frens were like..wah..so fast..gosh..now i am transfer my other chem hmk on foolscap..luckily didnt finish all yet..or else i tink i wil go crazy..x(..managed 2 transfer phy onto foolscap:D..maths..oh well..i very lazy la..i want 2 spend time revising n not waste time transferring..2 my maths teacher..if u r reading tis..i am so sorry..
but lectures in audi can b quite funny la..cos some of e tables tt r supposed 2 b in front of us ended up sliding back 2 e side of e chair..lol..which means tt our things keep dropping..hahaXD..tt actually happened 2me 3 times within tt hr when we r having pw lecture..haha..e ppl in front of me very poor thing..cos they hav 2 keep helping me pick up my stuff..heheh:P..n they also hav 2 worry 4 their safety..cos e things may end up falling on their heads..hahaha;D
went 4 my dental appt leh..luckily..cos there is another decaying tooth..yikes..thk goodness it is only initial stage..
managed 2 get my testimonial..thks xt:D..oh ya..wonder wat xt is going 2 give 2 yitong n simin on their bdae..haha..their bdae is like 2dae n tmr la..ah..so close..n my class got 2 ppl same bdae date..haha..everyone's bdae coming soon le..speaking of tt..my bdae is only 5 daes away..haha..anyway..happy bdae 2 them:D..
argh..juz realised tt i am gonna miss gp tis coming wed:(..cos i hav 2 leave early 4 art club learning journey 2 also noe how e ppl there conduct tour..rawr..we hav 2 go 2 3 places..tiring..but oh well..i wont b e only one though..comtemplating 2 join learning journey committee..plan on wat 2 do 4 e guided tour conducted in my sch 2 an art exhibition..e tour will b conducted by us after e excursion..hopefully tis will not happen too often la..sigh..
haiz..better go now..gotta catch up on my work..

school starting officially..argh!!

2009-02-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

yepp..orientation is over!!sigh,,i tink it is quite fun..esp if u hav cool n fun loving ogls n enthu classmates:D..but i tink i need more time 2 miz wif my class..cos i didnt manage 2 really talk 2 them..e most is tt i juz say hi 2 them..lolxD..juz saw my timetable..yikes..lessons x(..but nvr mind..i will get used 2being a campus nomad..walking ard in sch from one place 2 another 4 my lessons..haha;P..but i both like n dun like e timetable..cos i can go home early on certain daes:D..but there is once when i had 4hrs of break in between 2 lectures o.O..4 hrs leh..gosh:X..n there is another dae when i can actually go home at 10.45am but i heard tt we can only come out of sch at 12.15am-.-"..n i hav cca on tt dae at 2.30pm..o_o..oh well..there r many pros n cons 2 tis timetable..i am juz listing out some..but overall i am ok wif e arrangment la..hav 2 get used 2 it lo..n it is only temp..so i can only hope tt there will b a better timetable ba..*fingers crossed*..haiz..why muz i hav a cca tt is on wed..when we can actually go back home early on some of e weds..lol x.X..i tink almost all e ccas on wed..so i am not e only one..thk goodness..
went out wif my frens on valentine's dae last sat:)..but i hav 2 leave early..cos nite time got dinner wif frens..happy valentine's dae ppl!!;Di noe its late..but well..thks xt n ym 4 e cute gifts:D
decided 2 join art club..hahaha..guess tt is my tradition:D..n xt n ym join harmoc..cos they dun wan ava club which has mostly guys rather than girls..haha..we r not discriminating against guys..it is juz tt we r not used 2 being wif too many ppl of e opp sex..i dun mind talking n befreinding 2 guys..but sometimes i prefer 2 b wif ppl of ur same gender..ava seems almost like an all guys cca..anyway..i quite like art club..cos e girls there r humorous..haha..i thot it will b boring initially..n there r only 2 jc1 guys..lol..dunno if they joining or not..crapped n joked among ourselves..e jc2 ppl even teased each other..lol..we had pizza:D..woots;P..n e president was from chinese calligraphy as well..heheh..but diff sec sch la of course..gotta go le..tmr long dae..

orientation wk.:D

2009-02-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

ok..juz knew my class yesterdae..lols..i am in 10/09..which means i am so called in class 10 n i went into aj in yr 2009..nice:D..n i got e sub combi tt i wan..yayy:D..n i thot i cant get..cos too many ppl take e same combi as me..i am in same class as xueting:D..but sad..yingmin diff class from us:Owonder if my fren going same class as me..haha..hope so leh:P
still xant decide between harmonica n ava leh..someone help me!!argh!!:Xhow i wish i can split myself into 2 parts..then join both.haha..i cant possibly join voth lars..later wait cannot cope x(..wateca..will decide later ba..
gotta go..still need 2 settle some stuff..see ya:)

matriculation wk..

2009-02-05T21:23:00.000+08:00

yep..i better make tis post a quick one b4 i go n have a nice sleep..cos 4 e past few daes very tired sia X(
anyway..when i 1st went 2 e sch i saw quite alot of zhss ppl..lol..dunno if it is a bad thing or not..but glad tt many of my frens went there:)..n i saw my ex classmate haha..we were in e same pri sch..n i didnt even noe until he called out my name..lol;P..my grp was ok la..like we will actually talk 2 each other(not all e time of course)..haha..n they take e initiative 2 talk 2 me..actually i planned 2 talk 2 them liao..but they started 1st..haha:D..managed 2 make some new frens from e grp..didnt manage 2 talk 2 all of them..but well..a few ppl is better than nothing:D..consider it as an achievement:P.but some of e lectures r kinda boring..literally knocked me out..lols xP..but my grp leaders r nice:D..n one of them was from zhss..haha xD..so coincidential xD..hope they r my orientation grp leaders as well:D
cca carnival was juz yesterdae..n i was forced 2 sign namelists 4 some ccas..lol..n i juz ying chou them lor..at most dun join mah..but i rejected some of their offers..so called giving excuses not 2 sign..sorry 2 those ppl whom i hav rejected:(felt kinda guilty..they may tink i am rude or watevabut i cant possibly sign 4 so many ccas..tt will b weird..still cant decide between harmonica n ava club:(..actually i wan visual arts club lor..cos i tink it will not take up too much of my time..but my frem dun wan:(((..n i dun wan 2 b a loner there..i tink my frens prefer harmonica lo..got someone whom they noe mah..but i tink becos of me they sae ava club ok..i tink tt is e more ideal choice..cos also wont take up so much time..no syf n some concerts..juz tt responsibilities r heavy..something diff from my ususal ccas in pri n sec sch..cos i usually take art ccas..haiz..
got all my uniforms n stuff le..hopefully hav settled almost everything..orientation nxt wk..wonder which class will i go 2..hopefully my frens n i same class:D

my future is sealed..e journey awaits me

2009-01-30T21:54:00.000+08:00

ah..nvr knew an sms will actually seal my future..tt sms seem nothing 2 anyone..but 2those who take posting results 2dae..tis moment is impt..was glad i got e choice i wan..but some of my ex-colleagues didnt manage 2..most of them had 2 make do wif 2nd or 3rd choice..i tink i am one of e lucky bunch who managed 2 get their 1st choice..hope tt they will b satisfied wif wat they got;D..even my fren whom i noe only got her 3rd choice..anyway..glad she is ok wif it..
n i so wan 2 go out wif my ex-colleagues can..like they r a bunch of nice ppl..n i dun tink anyone of them is going there x(..so sad..i will really like 2 see them in e same sch as me..but really..it seems tt majority go poly..n someone is going tj..argh:(..kinda regret choosing aj after tt..but now..come 2 think abt it..i dun regret it now..cos seriously..i cant stand e fact of having 2 travel 4 an hour 2 n fro(which adds up 2 2hrs total journey time) n not being able 2 read or do hmk on e bus 4 fear of getting dizzy-.-..or not being able 2 catch a nap on e bus cos u hav 2 risk missing e stop:X..yup..n having 2 face very stressful lives in better jcs(no offense 2 those ppl going prestigious jcs)..juz dun like being treated as transparent..like being inignificant n a good-4-nothing..cos i had been treated like tt once n i had enough..really..i detested tt feeling 4 tt yr..i dun wan talk abt:S..even in sec sch i was treated tt way sometimes..but not as bad as tt yr in pri sch..got used 2 it mah..but tt SUCKS..rawr><..i dun wa tt nightmare2 happen 2 me once again..n i a afraid tt it wld happen even in aj n not juz e other better jcs-.-
countdown 2 sch..new frens..new environment..new teachers..blahblah

phew..back after a long time:D

2009-01-28T17:57:00.000+08:00

yepp..i am out of a job once again:D..which means freedom..lol x)..cos i only need 2 work till cny eve..so i am not needed anymore..hahaxD
anyway..i really want 2 thank them 4 giving me tis opportunity 2 hav a taste of how being in e fnb industry is like..honestly..it was really an eye opener 4 me..despite e fact tt i almost do e same old things..from cutting e charred bits off e bakkwa 2 stacking e bakkwa until very high..but seriously..i enjoyed being in e so-called warehouse..cos i dun need 2 deal wif customers..n it is more relaxing 4 me..even though i pity those who r super outside in e shop..n i tink e temp staff ppl there r nice..really..w/o them.i seriously will feel bored doing e same old thing over again..i will miss crapping wif them n getting into little trouble wif e full time staff(even though i am doing my work lol..but hey..i am not against tis ok..haha)..n i tink e perm full time ppl r nice..albeit a little bossy..(no offense)..oh well..it is a really enriching experience haha:D
anyway..got my pay le..yayy..tis is wat i call hard earned $$..so ppl..$$ is really hard 2 come by..so pls do not anyhow splurge k;P..yep..time really flies..cny is over..wif ang bao $$ rolling in on top of my pay..n running from one place 2 another 4 visitations..or having 2 deal wif ppl coming 2 my house..yepp..n i didnt go back 2 zhss during cny..even though mrs ngiam asked me to..not tt i dun wan 2 go..i was too tired 2 go..cos tt time i hav 2 work 3pm to 11pm..so yepp..i was snoozing like a pig till abt 1pm..hahaxD
sigh..didnt get 2 go 4 4e1'08 chalet..cos i was working..n i wan 2 go 4 bbq..but argh..e supervisor didnt allow me 2 go off earlier>:(..n i dun wan 2 work morn shift(7am to 3pm)..cos i hav 2 sacrifice my morn sleep x(..oh well..n i heard mr poh treat us de..*sniff sniff*..so sad..forget it anyway..it is over..
gotta go 4 cny dinner wif my family n frens..looking forward 2 it:D..n sigh..5 more daes 2 sch..ahhh..i am still in a holidae mood leh..oh no..wonder wat e future awaits me xP
group photos:D..even though some of my frens r not inside x(..(edit)thks wei lin 4 e photos:D

with one of e full time staff member:)

wif our supervisor:)

wei lin, me n joey:D..we r in e warehouse:P

midnite shift ppl xD(except 4 some of them..but majority r..lolxD)

morning shift ppl:D..haha..juz realised tt there r no photos of afternoon shift ppl(tt is me n some of us:D)..cos we dun hav camera X(..but it is ok..most impt thing is tt our frenships r forged:D..wonder if we r gonna hav any more outings besides e lunch at macs;D

results ppl:D

2009-01-17T00:51:00.000+08:00

ok..i tink someone is impatient..cos he wants 2 know which sch i go..lol;P..decided 2 go ajc liao..cos i initially thought of njc n tjc..but i realised tt they r quite far(even though ajc is juz as "bad"..)..n also i am quite tired of trying 2 compete wif IP prog ppl..very stressfulx(..shall not reveal wat r my other choices..confidential mah..hahaxD
anyway..i am quite satisfied wif my results..cos i managed 2 met my goal of getting below 10 for L1R5)(raw score..yayy:D)..quite gladd la:D..n my parents n most ppl whom i noe got 2 noe abt it as well..haha..my parents r quite shocked..lolXP..but i am glad i did well unexpectedly 4 comb humans, phy n hcl:D..but a little disappointed wif amaths n chem..cos e papers r quite simple n those r my strong subjects..wateva it is..i noe i hav done my best n yup..i will hav another chance in jc..
congrats 2 those who hav done well n those who did not..dun worry..wat is most impt is tt u hav done ur best:D..continue 2 jia you k?i understand e feeling of not doing well..cos i didnt do well 4 express chinese 2 yrs ago..juz dun give up k?:D
thk God 4 giving me e wisdom n confidence 2 tackle e qns 4 olevels..w/o u i simply cant imagine how will i fare..i will be helpless..thks also 4 giving me e assurance tt with u nothing is impossible..thks 2 u i did not feel really nervous b4 e exam..of course thks 4 telling me 2 go ajc..cos i tink i heard ur voice somehow..thks 4 supportive frens teachers n family..who hav guided me along throughout e yrs b4 e exam..in jesus name..amen

olevels results out soon!!argh!!

2009-01-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

oh man..time really flies..i am soo going 2 die from anxietyx(..good luck everyone!!xD
anyway..had managed 2 survive e wk of work..most of e time cuting away e charred bits of e bak kua..lolxP..except when e full time staff asked me 2 do other things..like vaccum pack e meat etc..crapped wif my frens n also 2dae sang n hummed some songs along wif one of them..haha..cos we r really bored..n we only do it softly..cos we dun wan 2 get into trouble wif e boss 4 being "slack"..haha..n my fren said tt e cny songs tt had been playing repeatedly 4 e past few daes dun sound terrible if i sang along wif her..haha;P..cos we r seriously bored of e songs..esp if they r e same old ones tt r played over e radio again..n i reek of bak kua..bleah..xP..e smell is "nice"..lol..but i am glad tt my frens r nice:D..its like we will try 2 talk 2 each other when possible..joking n crapping n stuff..n help each other..ofcourse i am glad tt e full time staff r ok as well..some of them really noe how 2 crack lame jokes haha..like there's tis guy who said pens..n we actually thught he said pantsxD..then he somehow can read our minds n said oi dun tink liddat leh..haha..n he claimed tt he was 20 yrs old when he had worked 4 15 yrs=.='''..dun get e joke??read carefully n try 2 interpret;D
btw..went 2 e open houses of all e polys except republic..cos it is too far from my home..duhs..got freebies..lolxP..n e students r quite nice:)..i even got a free blood test 2 find out my blood grp..haha..shall go into e lil detalis later..n i am not revealing my blood grp..haha..shhxP..gotta go sleep soon..v tired sia..toodles~

tired..lol..

2009-01-07T18:12:00.000+08:00

yepp..u all muz b wondering why i sm so free as 2 blog..well..cos i only need 2 work 4 4hrs per dae so far..yesterdae was given off..slept most of e dae..n looked through e poly booklets..cos i juz want 2 prepare wat course 2 take..in case i dun do well 4 my olevels(touch wood xD)..but after tt feel very fan..cos i still dun noe which course 2 take x(..but definitely i want 2 take one related 2 science:)..
n i was given another dae off tmr..kinda weird cos i take 2 daes leave in a wk..but happy cos i can take a break:)..but 2dae have 2 work in e morn..usually have 2 work in e afternoon..n btw..i have 2 work 5hrs per dae after my leave tmr..argh..but nvr mind..only one more hr..haha xD..n i am still contemplating if i should go 2 a few polys 2 take a look..cos tmr is also e open houses of e polys(dunno is it all of them)..n grab some freebies..lol xP..typical kiasu-ism;P..
recruit express juz called me 2 see if i need any job..but my mum answered e call n rejected e offer..cos i alrdy found one..lol

1st dae of work..

2009-01-04T11:06:00.000+08:00

reported in e afternoon..cos i was scheduled 2 be in e afternoon..then i spent e whole dae packing meat floss..lol..tt was e only thing i did throughout e dae..but well..thank goodness e ppl were quite nice..n i realised most of e ppl working temp r also waiting 4 olevel results..haha;P..n i managed 2 talk 2 some of them..lols..but one of them say tt i very quiet leh*.*..lols..but i guess she will be proven wrong..cos actually i talked alot..it is juz tt i dun want 2 end up offending others wif my mouth..so i gave e excuse of getting caught by e boss skiving..lolsxD..anyway..e work is not so bad..just quite tiring..but oh well..have 2 get used 2 it loxP..still got a long way 2 go..jia you ba:D

1st post of 2009:D

2009-01-02T21:23:00.000+08:00

yepp..i noe ppl will post theirs on e 1st..but mine is later..lolxP..so well..happy 2009 2 everyone!!!:)..i pity those who have 2 go 2 sch leh..haha..xing zai le huo lo..
anyway..going 2 start work soon tmr:D..finally..i tink tt guy muz be wondering why tis girl is soo impatient..want 2 start work soo fast..cos i called him twice 2 ask when can start work..lolxD..but wa 2 do..i am supposed 2 start worm on e 31st dec 2008..but i told him on e 2nd jan..cos i dun wan 2 work on 1st jan 2009..which is public hol..end up hav 2 start on 3rd jan 2009..lol..sure very jin zhang mahxP
anyway..i hope he arranged 4 me properly lo..i mean e reporting times 4 work..:)..wish me luck 4 my job:D
btw..pls support my website http://foreverlivingsales.blogspot.com k?tis is my so-called 1st job i told u abt..e one tt is only commission based n oso no shop 4 us 2 sell e goodies..rmb 2 let ur loved ones n frens know abt it..thks:D..but link not clickable..sorryx(

random-ness

2008-12-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

haiz..my bro hasnt uploaded e msia trip pics..n i am waiting 4 my frens 2 send us e pics(if there are)..sigh..so ya..no pics 4 now..oh well:(
anyway..found a job alr liao:D..haha..i noe i very slow..cos most of my frens hav job liao.but i dun care..muahaha;P..will b starting work soonxD..at bee cheng hiang:)..well..i went 4 tis so called interview at e HQ..n they juz told us wat 2 don such lo..nothing much..haha..n i will oso b working at e shop below e HQ..sales..yep..got e shirts liao..hav 2 wait 4 my supervisor 2 call me when 2 start work n stuffs..
thks belinda 4 e card:D..but i feel bad..cos i didnt send 1 2 her..lols:(..but nvr mind..i will get sth else 4 her..sorry:(..
now juz blogging 4 fun..as usual..nothing much 2 blog abt..really..n sb invited me 4 party..but i dun tink i will b going ba..cos i dun feel comfortable staying till late wif ppl whom i am not so familiar wif..oh well..gotta go..toodlesx)

2 daes to yr 2009

2008-12-29T14:17:00.000+08:00

haha..i noe christmas is over.but anyway..Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year:D..oh well...time really flies..it coming 2 e year 2009!well..i dunno if i should b looking forward 2 2009..cos i dunno wat is in store 4 me..but anyway..i tink i should not worry too much..n i dun tink i should make any resolutions..cos i will not even follow em..hahaxP
i am back from msia!!ok..it was quite an eventful trip.yep..cos we spent our time travelling to n fro from one place 2 another..n get stuck in traffic jams..lols..they r much worse than those in s'pore k..gosh-.-..so dun complain about getting caught in jams here..cos u will surely cannot tahan e jams in msia..anyway..had retail therapy in some of e shopping centres..even though there r certain times when my fren n i r bored..cos there were nothing 2 shop..n i realised tt in certain places..e no smoking signs r simply USELESS:x..eg..we went 2 a snooker room in a jetty near our hotel..n we decided 2 play 4 onli half hour instead of one..onli becos e room was full of smoke..lotsa ppl were smoking..n it was not nice 2 reject my fren's invitation 2 play snooker..cos she really wanted 2 play..n oso our hotel dun have snooker tables..so we had 2 bear wif e horrid smell while playing..n we juz anyhow shoot e balls into e holes..n i went out of e room once in a while 2 get fresh air:o..n i smelt of smoke..argh:X..i feel as if my lifespan has been shortened by 5 to 10 yrs..but anyway..glad tt my fren got her snooker fix..
managed 2 find a job 2 promote cny goodies..but e pay is kinda low..cos it is only commission basis..no hourly salary..n there were no shops designated 4 us 2 sell our stuff o.O..which means i had 2 persuade my frens 2 buy..but very difficult..cos i need 2 get e samples from e guy..n ppl wld rather buy from other ppl than from me..or make e goodies themselves..so i am oso applying 4 another job..hopefully can get lo..i applied 4 one at dsta..but my dad sae hav 2 wait tis wk..argh..cannot wait alr la..waited 4 one wk alr sia!!n my dad sae if i got tis job..den i cannot apply 4 a retail asst one..argh..i wan e retail one leh..cannot wait liao..argh!!see how lo..

lazing around

2008-12-18T14:03:00.000+08:00

well..was really bored..so decided 2 do some chinese painting..not bad la..but i tink my skills hav deteriorated..over time..but its ok..cos i tink e paintings look nicex)..lol..
too lazy 2 post pics..so ya..my posts r pretty boring..haha..but 4 e past wk..some stuff hav happened..even though e past daes were still quite boring..
went out wif my ex-classmates:)..so long nvr see em lo..cos we did not keep in touch 4 a longggg time..ever since we went 2 diff sec schs..haiz..wonder if they will be in e same jc as me..hope so:)..went marina square 4 lunch+movies..n bugis 4 noeprints!!;D..whoa..e last time i actually took em was like..2 yrs ago..gosh..had loads of fun crapping wif em..they didnt really change much..haha..n i realised i could actually click wif em..ok..i am not saying tt i cant click wif my current frens..but i juz click wif em better:)..cos we have 2 things in common--dress casually when we r out n also not going 4 prom nite!!woots..u noe sth..almost all my frens tt i noe wanted prom nite..n they were complaining why zhss dun have one..but u noe..i feel tt e money spent on such things r not worthwhile..cos u hav 2 spend a boomb on such things..not tt i am financially unstable..but i feel tt e money can be spent on other stuffs..i am surprised tt they didnt ask me why my sch dun hav..or say my sch cheapskate..n i normally feel uncomfortable going out wif ppl who dress as if they r adults..i mean..if they r much older than me den its understandable..but 4 ppl who r same age or younger than me..i dunno..i juz got tis weird feeling..like others r staring at us becos of our varying dress sensX(..sigh..
n ya..my family got cheated man!!rarh!!x(..its like..we went 2 tis money changer at toa payoh 2 change money 4 msia trip..n tis shop gave us a highest rate of 239 over e phone..but when we came down 2 tt shop..tt stupid woman told us tt it was 238.5..x.X..so we decideed to go 2 other shops 2 take a look..but tt was still qiute high..so we went back 2 e shop 2 change money..n guess what?tt same STUPID woman told us it was 238.05..see e diff??wow..she actually cheated us of abt 7 ringgit..how stupid can tt be??:X..den my dad so pissed off he scolded her..serves her rite..den a customer got pissed off n left..haha!!huo gai!!who ask tt woman 2 cheat??den she no choice but 2 give us 238.3..cos tt is e 2nd highest rate..n so-called want 2 give us extra 50 sen..50 SEN!!hello!!u might as well dun give us!!wth!!cos she only give us e receipt like only after she changed e money..by e time we saw e discrepancy it was too late sia!!><..ppl..moral of story..pls be careful wateva u do k??those idiots should hav their shops closed down!!=X..pls dun go 2 tis shop..its called goldhall money changer..rmb e name of tis shop!!@#^%*!!RARH!!
ok..tt aside..went 4 bay camp reunion!!woots..play some games n stuff..but my 2 water bottles lost leh..some one of e bottles got lost wif half of my limeade inside!!RARH!!idiots!!smb threw my bottles without my permission!!argh!!but overall..we still had fun la..oh well..

yawn..

2008-12-17T12:03:00.000+08:00

was supposed 2 post yesterdae..but my computer has a mind of its own..when we were using it..it actually turned off on its own..lols..den it restarted again..o.0
anyway..juz a short lil post..cos i am proud 2 announce tt I AM ON MY WAY 2 BEING A HOUSEWIFE!!x)..i juz cleared e bed n swept e floor 2dae..haha:)..but i didnt mop e floor yesterdae..cos i was kinda tired..n frustrated..not really becos i cant find a job..honestly..i onli want 2 find 1 4 experience..not so much 4 e money..but actually i am pissed off by e fact tt recruit express n other recruitment agencies seemed 2 hav lotsa jobs 4 olevel students..but in actual fact they cant even find one 4 me..i am sure theres actually one waiting 4 me rite??n we hav 2 compete wif alevel students..maybe i was juz plain fussy..haiz..oh well..gotta go..see ya

avril lavigne complicated

2008-12-09T16:38:00.000+08:00

bored..so went 2 set up site meter n e song..v nice sia..but site meter not accurate one:((..but nvr mind..cos i succeeded in embedding e song after 3-4 attempts:D
Uh Huh
Life's like this
Uh Huh
Uh Huh
That's the way it is

Cause life's like this
Uh Huh
Uh Huh
That's the way it is

Chill out
What you yellin for?
Lay back
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

I like you the way you are
When we're drivin in your car
And you're talkin to me one-on-one
But you become

Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frusterated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turn into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no

You come over unannounced
Dressed up like you're somethin else
Where you are and where it's at you see
You're makin me
Laugh out
When you strike a pose
Take off
All your preppy clothes
You know
You're not foolin anyone
When you become

Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frusterated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turn into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no
(no no no)
No no
(no no no)
No no
(no no no)
No no

Chill out
What you yellin for?
Lay back
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frusterated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turn into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
(yeah yeah)
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frusterated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no

bay camp rocks!!!

2008-12-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

ok..back from bein gtough at last!!xD..my church youth camp is quite fun la..n i realised tt soo many ppl came from zhss!!yay!!:D..n we were like shocked..cos we nvr see each other in sch b4..lol..
we had games, food n bible study(as in worship n grp discussions)..i tink e messages were quite touching..cos it juz shows how God is gd n stuff..n i tink i finally noe why we go 2 church on sundaes 2 sing n stuff...ok..i am not discriminating non christians k..but really..if u go 4 e camp..u will noe wat i mean..n i tink my frens got a shock when i go..haha..managed 2 talk 2 some ppl..n make new frens:)..but i tink some of e games r like..omg..cos they r mostly related 2 food lor..den some of e games r kinda weird..like 1at dipping ur face in e milk b4 diping it in cereal..eww..no offense 2 e games comm..but seriously..i dunno why i feel tt e milk smells..even though i love 2 drink milk..xP
anyway..didnt get 2 go us la..but nvr mind..maybe nxt yr ba..still trying 2 look 4 job la..but aiya..if really cannot find den nvr mind lo..

boringggggg

2008-11-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

sigh..no news from e guy yet..guess e job search unsuccessful ba..anyway oso cannot blame him..cos i onli o level student mah..sumore no working experience..haiz..den i oso call other ppl..send my resume 2 em oso..but so far not many responses..dun wan talk abt it la..n e funny thing is.i actually called 2 ppl from recruit express who were actually colleagues working in e same branch..likeo.O..n e guy who interviewed me 1st got a shock..ohman..n e girl who interviewed me tat dae was a hard nut 2 crack..whoa..if she was e boss of some company..i will seriously pity those working under her man..n she is not as friendly as tat guy..at least i noe e guy was serious in his job..being very formal n such..even 2 e extent of shaking hands wif u..but e girl was like a little rude..ok..tat was my 1st impression of her..n she accused me of not telling her tt i will b away 2 msia(again..argh=X) when i noe tt e job she offered me was only 2 wks n tt it happened 2 claash wif e job..like hello..its not tt i dun wan 2 tell her..its juz tt e trip was unconfirmed..i cant possibly tell her tt oh i will b away n den telling her later tt i wont b away rite??tt wld b ridiculous..n she made it seem like i am a liar xO..like wth lo..haiz..n she started crappin abt like her client wld b angry n stuff...blahblah..
ok..mayb it was my fault tt i did not tell her tt i may b away in advance..despite being only tentative..but i feel tt she was kinda ridiculous..rarh=S..n tt was not e only case..cos she actually sent e resume over 2 her client even b4 meeting up wif her 4 interview..i was darn shocked k..i had nvr heard of ppl who send resumes even b4 meeting up wif e person lor=X..i mean..i am ok wif e job doesnt mean tt i muz take it rite??i didnt even noe wat is e company name n salary leh!!n she actually asked me 2 email my photo in 15 mins time..like b4 meeting me??gosh..i was darn flustered k..n i had 2 ask my dad where he stored e passport photos..cos we renew our passports recently..so he had scanned e photos in e comp..i wonder..is she tt desperate of $$??i dunno..like hello..even wif recession oso cannot do things like tt mah!!even tt guy did not sae he send my resume 2 his client b4 meeting me up wat:/
wateva..anyway..it is VERY unlikely tt i will get a job tis yr..despite of looking at classified n jobscentral..cos i will b away 4 1 wk 2 msia..like who wants 2 find replacement 4 me la??unless they r really desperate..haiz..nvr mind lor..mayb 2 yrs later den find one lor..cos now ppl prefer alevel students n/or htose wif working experience..sigh:///..mayb its a good thing..den i can stay at home n read..n learn 2b a good housewife..lolxD
btw..i will oso b away 4 bay camp...so yes vivian n ppl out sere..u cant pester me again..hahaxP..since i dun hav any job offers..n i am quite bored at home..den might as well lor...anyway..i hav lotsa places tt i wanna go..haha:D
oh..n i got an invitation 2 go over 2 us 4 holidaes by my aunt..like omg..i wanna go..but u see..i cant go 4 a mth..onli max 2 wks..looking at my schedule..but my mum worried tt i will b tired..n oso i hav 2 take a plane myself..sigh.i tink my aunt wants me 2 go over 4 christmas..but i cant becos u noe why(look above)..sigh:///..oh man..n she will pay 4 my flight tickets!!^o^..n she made e trip sound soo fun..like disneyland n FOOD!!!rarh..=X...n ya..most prob she will b working ..which means tt i will b alone at home wif her rabbit..if i go over b4 or after christmas..sigh..tink tt is why my parents dun seem tooo keen on me going..RARH!!:(((..

interview!!henderson waves!!

2008-11-21T11:54:00.000+08:00

yayy..juz received a call from recruit express..asking me 4 interview later at 4pm:)..haha..but cannnot be too happy yet..cos still dunno if can get job or not..not from e company tat i 1st sent resume to..anyway..have 2 go back 2 sch 2 help mr poh 4 origami thingy at 1.30..den have 2 excuse myself later 4 e interview..wish me good luck:D
went 2 e henderson waves few daes ago..night view is NICE!!!:)e bridge was lighted up..soo cool!!haha..we went through e marram trail..which was like soo dark..veri eerie...its like..dere is a black hole in front of us..wif a path leading through..den my bro n i switched on our torches..very well-prepared..lol:P..cos we saw e newspaper article tat e trail is not lit at nite..haha..was initially gripping my mum's hand..but after tat got used 2 it..
in e so-called forest..dere were actually ppl saying dere..like gosh..dey not afraid of getting hit by fallen branches meh??one of e houses got swimming pool somemore..imagine if some guy(or cikopek--dirty old man) were 2 use e trail..n saw some gals in bikinis swimming inside..wonder wat would happenxD..hmm..lolxP..guess if my dad sees tis..he wld surely sae my mind is corrupted:P
i tink e trip is seriously worth going..especially in e nite..but if u r afraid of e dark..dun go by e trail..haha..but e nite view is worth it..i wanna go marina barrage soon..looking forward 2 it:)

back~

2008-11-19T16:10:00.000+08:00

lol..got a free suntan!!yea..like real..i am always dark mah;P
anyway..besides e kelong which i had went 4 e 5th time..we went 2 tis island called sibu besar(was tat e rite spelling?)..n we bought coconuts..n it was so cool!!cos e boy of tat family climbed up e tree n plucked em 4 us:O..like gosh..he made climbing seem easy sia..amazing..then i tried climbing upp e tree..but i was freaked out..even though there were grooves cut in e trunk..my feets hurts!ouch..but e photo is in my bro hp..muz get from him later..haha..cool:D..
juz sent out a email 2 some company 4 job interview..whether i can get in or not is another thing..most impt i have tried..at most i will try another company:)..oh well..dere r quite a lot of jobs..but mostly i dun meet e requirements..or i dun like e job..fussy me..haha..but i feel tat e job muz b sth worthwhile 2 do..despite e fact tat recession means muz take any job..even if u dun like..yup..will see if tat person replies me soon..

its time 2 celebrate!!!

2008-11-15T12:30:00.000+08:00

yayy..e os r officially over!!woots..congrats 2 all e sec 4s n 5s 4 being able 2 tahan e last 4 wks:)..but i feel very sad leh..cos i cannot go 4 e zhcc grad party..i will be away on a holidae 2 msia from tmr:(..n will only be back 17 nov evening..how i wish i could actually go lor..haiz:/suddenly miss my juniors again..hiaz..but nvr mind..cos they will get 2 see me 4 e open house..of course i wont get 2 see e others from my batch:((..ohwell..
i juz feel like pinching myself..cos come 2 tink abt it..how on earth can i actually tahan e torturous 4 wks man..n now b4 i knew it..i am actually enjoying my freedom..haha..guess tis is all psychological..lolxP
didnt go 4 e class outing yesterdae..cos i hav a date wif my dad!!lol..tat was pretty a lame excuse..haha..but dunno why i juz dun feel like going..i noe it is e last outing..but i guess i am REALLY tired:x..honestly..i need a good rest now..cos i didnt really sleep enough 4 e past wks..n 2dae..instead of waking up at my usual time of 11am..i ended waking up at 9am..which was my early time 4 e past wks..juz 2 make sure i hav enough time 2 study..groggy in e morn..sigh..now feeing much better though:D..i dun care if e others hate me 4 not going..let em sae wat they want..
come 2 tink abt it..i wonder who will be in e same jc as me..hmm..n someone is pestering me which jc i am going..tink she ask me 4 e 3rd time?i dunno..but i seriously need 2 noe my results 1st..den can consider..n wat type of ppl there will be in my new class..will i still keep in contact wif my old frens..geez..but i only want 2 tink of now..get a part time job or sth..n leave e results aside..
in sim uni now..wow..e bks r soo thick..like gosh..how on earth can i even finish e bks..but thk goodness some of e stuff is i hav learnt b4..like e stages of respiration..haha:)

career seminar

2008-09-16T23:22:00.001+08:00

haiz..such a longgg dae 2dae..career seminar..when e jcs n polys give talks on their sch..still dunno wat 2 do later leh..so luan:/
my hiatus is all crap..cos i am still blogging..haha..lol:P..but by tis wk sure wont blog..yea..gotta b serious..juz dun wanna get my results..scared i will cry..lol
lol..2dae ms ong ask me why i bring such a huge bag 2 sch xP..actually its becos i brought bks 2 put under table..then i no need bring heavy bks 1 sch tmr..after tat i put my file in e bag lor..but bag quite heavy cos file got lotsa stuff..ok..i am pretty stupid 2 bring file=.=..ohwell..den i tell her tat other ppl oso bring big bag mah..lol..didnt tell her e actual reason..or else she will tink i very kiasu..hahaxD..den she tot i bring bks 2 study._.
den she sae wat i haardworking o.0..prelims over still study.__.'''..lol.i am not as nerdy as e prcs ok..even though i still study sometimes...den i tell her tat after prelims muz rest 1st xP..lol..i noe i should b worrying abt olevels..but seriously..we muz rest 1st ma..a few daes oso better than nothing..haha..but i will work harder after resting..tired sia-_-zzz
yup..gotta do some real stuff..mugging..lol..see ya..

prelims r over:D

2008-09-15T22:24:00.001+08:00

yayy..prelims over liao..but screwed up..maybe can onli score maths..ppl tink i hypocrite..cos i score a1 even if i sae die..but some things cant b controlled..but if those ppl confirm a1 sae they die n yet score a1..mayb tats diff..
went vivo wif e 3..celebrate maimai bdae..happy bdae:)..glad u enjoyed urself..
going 2 graduate soon..so sad.gonaa miss my frens..X(..hopr i wont cry during grad dae..lol.
its like..2e7 drifting apart..we dun sae hi 2 each other unless very close..haiz..miss those times 2gether..like youthdae concert n sl proj..on hiatus again..gotta mug..ciao..will onli blog after os..haha:)

life's short..sigh..

2008-06-20T13:58:00.000+08:00

haiz..ever since his demise..i juz fely uneasy...maybe becos i nvr go 2 his wake ba..felt kinda guilty.cos i had wanted 2 go..but i juz didnt wanna cry there..i noe crying is normal..juz dun wanna do tat in front of soo many ppl..call me a coward..i dun care..oso becos mum dun let me too..oh well..
felt sad n sorry 4 him after reading robin blog..goodness..nvr knew tat was soo serious..if only i had known..but it was all too late..sigh:/
sacrificing his life 4 our studies..tat was sth few can do..sigh..he was soo young at 36..n was only e hod 4 abt 4 yrs..when tis thing happened..:(..n i wanna 2 make up 4 wat i had done 2 him prev..by doing well 4 comb. humans...wish me luck ppl..cos tis can be done if theres a miracle..hopefully my wish will come true..n u noe sth..4 e online survey..i was very bias..cos he was e only tcher who had -ve comments..i put lotsa disagrees..haiz..kinda regret it now..nvr knew tat he actually cared 4 our studies..n did his best in trying 2 help us score..but i even complained tat his lessons r boring..like exaggerating tt lessons tat is 1/2 hr seemed like 3 hrs..felt like slapping myself...haiz..i did not have a good impression of him..but tat changed..only after his death..sigh
looking forward 2 tmr..yayy..cos its my class bbq..tink will be e last one b4 os..sigh..
life is soo short n fragile..treasure it..n treasure e ppl around u..
lord, thk u 4 bringing mr tan 2 noe u..n 2 trust u as ur lord n saviour..pray tat u will bless him always while he is wif u..n tat he will be happy always as he lives eternally in heaven..where there is no tears, hunger n thirst..amen..
mr tan..u will be in our hearts always..will rmb n miss u dearly..n we will fulfill ur wish..

bbq!!

2008-06-17T13:58:00.001+08:00

haha..tis will probably be my last post 4 now..cos sch reopen den very busy..
yepp..bbq was qiute ok..with lijun penging e food 4 us..n yes..foods nice..but didnt eat a lot..cos of my face..boohoo..nvr miind..but felt soo bad..cos we didnt help em peng e food..so sorry..but vincent sorta asked me if food is ok..i am testing e food..lol..shall post pics after os ba..
anyway..my mood was actually spoilt by e fact tt ABUNCH OF IDIOTS STOLE MY BIKE!!!argh!!cos when my frens n i went up e beacon tower..my bike went missing..man..i was so scared n sad..tt i quickly called my parents n apologised profusely..n i juz cannot tahan..n broke down..sounds stupid..i noe..ppl were looking at me..but who cares??if they dun noe how it feels 2 lose ur bike den dun be a kaypoh lor...anyway..my frens helped me search..den my dad called 2 sae tt my bro n him r searching..den while we r having e bbq..mum called n said tt e bike was found..thk God!!he helped em find my bike!!
now how tis happened..my dad was walking near e place where i lost it..along e tents...cos they will sure hide it inside mah..den my dad found it..BUT THOSE IDIOTS WERE DISMANTLING E BIKE N WERE TRYING 2 MODIFY IT SO TT IT LOOKS LIKE THEIR BIKE!!thk goodness dad found it on time..cos they were trying 2 spray paint over it..n my bro n dad got hit in e process..so sorry...thk goodness they were not hurt..cos no bruises nor internal injuries..touchwood..but felt guilty cos it was becos of me tt they had 2 go thru all e trouble..n risk being injured..called e police..n took pics of e damaged bike..n explained e whole story..oh..while e idiot was hitting my dad..a SUPER NICE malay guy pushed him away..n pinned him..thks uncle!!n let me tell u..E PARENTS OF THOSE IDIOTS SUCK BIG TIME MAN!!!while e guy pushed him 2 e ground 2 protect my dad..tis idiot pushed e guy away..n wanted 2 hit him..n CLAIMED TT E GUY HIT HIM!!WAT IS TIS MAN..UR IDIOTIC SON BULLY MY DAD N BRO LEH..N E GUY WAS JUZ HELPING EM WAT..DEN THEY NVR EVEN INJURED UR STUPID SON LEH..DISGUSTING..GO N DROWN IN E SEA LAH!!
anyway..wanna thk jessica belinda ruiying yingmin fanghua xueting 4 helping me find..n oso my dad n bro 4 finding it..thks soo much!!n my dad rox..cos he was able 2 fix it almost back 2 its original..yayy!!

tribute..

2008-06-17T13:58:00.000+08:00

i thot my frens were joking when they sae mr kelvin tan died..was trying 2 live in disillusion..only when mrs dolly ong told us e bad news..tat it was real...n i saw e obituary..
mr tan..even though i get pissed off 4 making ss boring..cos u only talked n made us sleep..but at least u helped me get my 1st a1 4 ss test..i was so angry wif u 4 not being able 2 help me pass my midyr..cos i tink ia m e only 1 who failed..sorry..i expected so much from u..juz becos u r e hod..if only i had known..maybe i would not have been soo selfish..
glad u knew God though..n i pray tat u will have peace n happiness in heaven..rest well..n dun worry abt us..we will work hard..salute u..
God bless..

why some ppl r liddat de???

2008-06-14T21:24:00.001+08:00

ppl..i am gonna vent my freaking frustration on someone whom i noe..cos i juz cant tahan tis fella...better run away b4 i explode..haha..xD
WAT IS E FREAKING PROBLEM WIF U?!?!I MEAN,U DUN WANNA HELP ME SAY SO LAH..U R SO SELF-CENTRED N SELFISH..NO WONDER PPL GET FREAKING PISSED OFF BY U!!GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!SO WAT IF U R SMART..JUZ BECOS U GET 6 4 UR L1R5 DOESNT GIVE U E RITE 2 DO SO..IF U DUN NOE HOW 2 HAVE INTERPERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS..FORGET ABT LOOKING 4 ME WHEN U NEED HELP!I ONLY ASK U 2 LET ME SEE UR TEST PAPER COS I NOEU DIDVERY WEL 4 TAT OVERALL SUB..SO I LOOKED 4 U..BUT U FREAKING CLAIM TAT TCHER VERY LINIENT N U DIDNT WRITE WELL..WAH..IF TCHER LENIENT DEN EVERYONE WILL DO WELL ALREADY MAH..WHY WOULD PPL SCORE BADLY 4 TAT TEST..U FREAKING JOLLY WELL NOE URSELF TAT U GOT HIGHEST 4 TAT SUB..N YET U R LYING 2 ME..WAT IS TIS MAN??DEN U FREAKING HOU LIAN PI ASK ME 4 MY EL FILE..LEND ME UR PAPER DEN TALK><..U SO WANG EN FU YI LOR..I HELPED U 2 PHOTOCOPY THING LEH..N I EXPECTED U 2 AT LEAST HELP ME..I AM NOT ASKING ANYTHING IN RETURN..BUT AT LEAST HAVE E COMMON SENSE 2 HELP OTHERS RITE??N WHEN I ASK 4 MIDYR PAPER FROM OTHER PPL..THEY ASK ME WHY DUN BORROW FROM U COS U DO VERY WELL..DEN I SUMORE GIVE U FACE..SAY TAT U MAY WRITE VERY CHIM SO I BORROW FROM EM 1ST..FREAK LAR..ITS NOT LIKE I AM GOING 2 PUT A CURSE ON UR TEST PAPER TAT U WILL FAIL OR WAT..ITS NOT LIKE BY LETTING ME SEE UR PAPER U R GONNA FAIL RITE?!SO WHY R U SO ZI SI..IF NOY 4 E OTHER 2 I WOULDNT CARE ABT U..I WUN EVEN TALK 2 U..I WUN EVEN WAN 2 GO OUT WIF U MAN..I DISLIKE PPL WHO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME..DUN TINK JUZ BECOS I TREAT U NICELY DOESNT MEAN U CAN TREAT ME LIKE TIS..GET REAL!!!

yawn..haha

2008-06-12T21:10:00.000+08:00

went 2 my mum's fren house 2 help her clear some books..cos her house en bloc..n so she wants me 2 choose some books there 2 bring home..haha..went there..n started 2 sort them..haha..so many bks 2 choose..very luan X)
got some roald dahl(is tat how u spell)bks..n some others by famous authors..i want The BFG leh..but one end of e page got torn off..so have 2 reject:(((
took very long 2 choose e bks..of course lah..choose so fast oso have 2 wait 4 my parents mah..cos they r still sorting stuff downstairs(i was on e 2nd floor)so juz read some bks..den dun need 2 bring home..haha..horrible me..brought quite a lot of bks lah..haha..den my dad told me they took a koala bear 4 me..haha..my parents ROX big time man;D..den then ask me take a look at some other stuffed toys..actually i only wanted small ones..cos my house no spaceXP..took another smaller koala bear n alligator 4 my bro..haha..my bro may tink i am childish..initially did not wan 2 take..cos crocs arent my fav..n juz take lor..since my mum say very cute=.=e koalas r cute though..lolX)
pretty random here..haha..

Woohoo!!2 weeks r overrr!!

2008-06-08T20:53:00.000+08:00

whew...feeling really tired now..cos i managed 2 get over wif e torture of those 2 wks...great sense of achievement..hahaha..i am currently in a "homework" mood now(like real X~x)..cos e kiasu sch gave us sooo much hmk..tat we dun have time 2 study..or even have fun..sigh..sumtimes i wonder..wat is e sch trying 2 do..is it becos e prev batch got an av. of 10 4 their L1R5..tats why they r pushing us 2 get 9????i dun get it..we dun even have learning carnival 2 at least have some fun..play hard mah..n now we have 2 go through all these???as i said, i noe all these lessons r gd..but i tink we should at least have some extent of rest..we r NOT robots..n even robots NEED rest..haiz..watever..even my dad's fren felt these lessons should be optional..sigh
kinda screwed up chem spa..cos e weird thing is..i did not know where did they put e litmus paper n e splint..argh..only when i was clearing e mess did i realise tat they were on e bench BEHIND me..cos i had 2 sit in front...RARH!!><
should blog more now..b4 i go chiong all my hmk n rev...muahaha..sch reopen have so many tests n spa leh...pretty scared of phy..cos i dun wanna screw tis up..cos 4 e past few experiments..i dunno how 2 set up e freaking circuits..e ammeter n voltmeter went against me..n recently it was becos of e stupid wire tat was soo freaking SHORT..tat i ended up coming up wif my own readings..stupid rite??RARH..gonna see tcher 2 practise..i wun wanna screw tis up ever again...n i am gonna make sure tat i know every single basic thing abt setting up circuits...MUST MUST MUST!!!can anybody pls HELP ME???

life's like tat..

2008-05-28T11:22:00.000+08:00

sigh..sec 4 life is really...haiz..i mean..our so called learning carnival SUCKS..really..i tink tats e worse one i had thruout my 4 yrs in zh..n wwe didnt hav e chance 2 play hard after midyrs la..man..ended up having timed pracs..lectures..theres simply NO fun lor..we cannot even go 4 excursions..or join e maths n science challenge..oh well..
n we r on e newspapers yesterdae..haha...abt having lessons during e hols..argh..wat does she mean by end at 3.15??some of us have 2 stay till 4.15 leh..i mean..there r some times when we can go home early..but wth..everydae staying back in sch soooo late is like torturing us lor..she somemore said during e meet e parents session tat lessons will end at 1pm ma...i mean lessons r gd..at least they help us catch up with our work..but seriously..we really do not hav time 2 get enough rest lor..i noe e teachers oso tired like us..but if tis cont..everyone will mentally break down..n we will not fare as well 4 e os..who can we blame man??sigh..X.x..oh well..i can only sae wait 4 e end of yr hols 2 come ba..
got back my report bk liao..results??bi shang bu zu bi xia you yu..i mean my results r pretty average..some ppl may sae my results veri gd..but if u compare mine wif some ppl..u will noe wat i mean..n i tink u will noe whom i am talking abt..

after more than a mth of hibernation...

2008-05-13T11:22:00.000+08:00

oh yeah..back 2 post finally^^not going 2 sch 2dae..rotting at home somehow..glad tat e midyrs r over..its like a load off ur shoulders luh:)midyr n chem spa..ok la..at least time managment is there..erm..well at least;)..its so much better than last yr eoy..when e paper is sooo freaking harddddd..oh well..
yupp..went 2 get a new phone 4 myself or rather my whole family..cos ccontract going 2 end..mine is lime green n white..cool:)gotta tell e others my new no...helped mum type in her contacts manually..neck very pain..haha..nvr mind..treat tis as her mothers' dae gift 4 her ba..haha
n yes..there was once when i did not come 2 sch..cos was feeling really sick..fever..cough n sore throat..initially thot can go sch..but when mum checked my temp..she told me 2 stay at hme..tat was when i realised tat i had hit an all time high of 39.5 degrees celsius..no its not farenheit..u r not seeing things..-_-111
haha..thks 2 those who called or sms me asking me if i was ok..haha^u^..i tink lianlaoshi will miss me n not take me 4 granted..lol..so zilian o.0..cos i heard tat when i did not come 2 sch..she was 2 no avail trying 2 get em 2 greet her..ahahahahaXP...man..should have seen tat reaction on her face..evil me..maybe i should porn lesson n see tat 4 myself...heehee
Happy belated bdae xt n happy mothers' dae!!:]

busy..

2008-04-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

bored..so.decided 2 blog..juz cant change e proflie pic..argh...maybe should try later..aniwaes..pretty busy lately..cos of tons of hmk n tests..n midyr..garhhh..
had parents dae..n since my parents r not around n i wan see e results..he made me n my fren stay till he has seen e last parent=.=..den we waited 4 him 2 bring out our report bks..n he said both of our results r not 2 e bez of ur capability..watever..it is only e ca though..jiayous:)..my results r ok lah..i mean i noe i have tried..but i juz tink i can do much better 4 some of my subjects..n ppl may sae tat i do very well..but u noe my expectations of myself r very high..perfectionism..haha..did not og 4 cca twice liao..lolx..muz be super quiet w/o us..haha..esp boon kiat..well..but not going 4 it is NOT = more free time..ohwell.gonna start being a mugger from 2dae onwards..n get 6 4 L1R5;D..haha..nth is impossible:))
signing off
nerdy me:)