am i too selfish?

woah..wonder how i managed 2 survive more than a mth on hiatus..XD..but i am typing tis only becos my loyal readers r bugging me 2 post!hahaha..they juz cant wait 2 see e nxt post lo..even though i tink my posts r super boringggggg n always emo emo de..lols..

i am getting more irritable lately..4 some reason..there is once when during break i was literally putting on a black face n not really talking 2 my frens..well yeah..actually i suddenly thot of sth..tis recurring prob..n i was quite pissed/upset..shall not elaborate too much on it..guess it is due 2 e stress tt has been piling up on me?hmm..wateva it is..i really cant tolerate those ppl who pissed me off..n i tink they r selfish..but recently i feel tt i may b worse than them..

was asked 2 b in charge of e class noticeboard..even though i am not e class leader..i did not accede 2 their request not becos my art is v gd or wat..but becos i can mayb contribute 2 e class in some way 4 e so called last time..n it was almost done..except 4 only 1 thing..e class goals..even though i was told tt i muz put in tt cos it is a necessary component..was not on e board..not becos i didnt read instructions..but it is actually due 2 e fact tt some idiot actually threw e poster away..it was put up only a few daes ago n it was gone in a flash:(..

i mean..mayb it was my fault tt i did not check e board everydae 2 make sure it was dere or tt i did not secure it enough..but seriously..who would expect it 2 drop or worse still got lost??e one who did e thing was pretty upset..n i had 2 keep apologising 2 her cos i dun feel gd..i noe tt she spent e whole nite doing it..which tt was wat made me feel even worse..i dun blame e person 4 throwing it away cos htere was no cupboard or anything 2 put e poster in though..but i still feel really sad abt it..i even wanted 2 do e poster myself as compensation..but she said tt she dun mind doing it..but..she is soo busy..if i were 2 keep asking her 2 do it den she may get really pissed off wif me..on e other hand if i do she may b unhappy cos her work could not b up on e board..i wish i could ignore abt tis thing..cos we dun really use tt classrm n we dun always look at e board 4 so called updates or wateva..but den ppl may tink tt i v bo chap:/..some more e colour combi of e things on e board v weird..n it also looks empty..haish..now idk if i shld ask her later again when she is more free??really leh..i feel tt my mindset may b too selfish..only thinking of e board w/o thinking of her..

argh..mayb i shld juz kiv tis thing 1st..n juz do wat i shld b doing now..