Buuusssssssssyyyyyyyyy!!!

Rainbow in the starry night!:)

Busy wif hmk n tests...wish me luck!:)

managed 2 pull some time out 4 blogging...haha.Flag dae yesterdae...had fun though, but it was not easy 2 ask 4 money...with weird stares n all...gtg

Racial Harmony Dae!!

So many happening lately

finally posting after abt 2 weeks or so...had racial harmony day yesterdae...my class wore ethnic costumes, n i look weird in mine...haha:).had tis elearning dae a week ago...cooped in my hse 4 a long time...sigh. had amaths test as well...it is quite ok...except 4 a few mistakes:(.also had listening compre...screwed it up.gosh:(hope i will do better 4 my written exams.emaths relatively ok...no comments.feel like an abandoned child, sad, lonely, unwanted...when i see ppl hav frens crowding em, i would$ feel like crying.insecurity??attention-seeking??i dunno.unsociable??cold fish???feeling weird when i am alone...kinda used 2 it though..dad told me tat i am liddat...minor austism.possible...maybe i am juz a cold fish who does not express my feelings easily...i dun tell ppl abt mi probs...prefer keeping em 2 myself, even if it hurts badly, even if it is someone whom i can trust...maybe God will b e only one who noe wat am i going thru... juz feel tat i am a hypocrite...cant even conduct miself properly...irritate ppl..

Relieved(temporaily):)

o level oral is over(finally!:))no worries anymore...haha.no need 2 study 4 oral, so catching up wif my hmk though...el journal(gosh, i have no idea wat 2 write either). thank goodness e examiners r sooo friendly:)...at least they smiled, even if my performance sucks:P.haha. anywae its over, n i have tried my best, even though i can do better...kept stammering...gosh...i screwed my oral..but its over-shouldnt be brooding over it, n juz do well 4 written exams...

Argh..oral tis mon

my nightmare is coming...cos i have oral exam tis mon...n oral is not really my piece of cake, despite having taken orals b4 n passing them...this is not e prelims or watsoever, tis is OLEVELS:(i mean, ppl who take cl r taking it nxt yr...Sigh..aniwae, i am not e only one..so tats ok..juz try my best rite?:) but wat i am worried is tat b4 oral, i will be quite confident tat i can pass, but when i sat rite in front of e teacher, i get nervous soo easily, esp conversation...even though i did not offend e teacher...n also i am afraid tat i will not be able 2 answer e qns during conversation:((. n all becos of tis, i can lose marks...cos if u r nervous, its natural tat u will not talk fluently..n conversation carries more marks than reading aloud...haiz...if i can be so nervous in front of my teachers, whom i have seen in sch evrydae, then how abt those teacters from other schs? u have nvr seen them b4 n u need 2 give them a gd impression of urself... sigh...mr ng told me b4 tat u juz talk as per normal when i was tested by hikm in sec 1..gosh, but it juz comes on its own..despite telling myself 2 juz reelaxx...i will feel nervous...looks like i have 2 jiayou n most imptly, pray!!!hope tat He wil give me courage 2 talk 2 e teacher, juz like when i talk 2 mr poh, or even my friends...but in a formal manner of course..juz hope tat i dun screw up in it...oh ya, soo many things r happening e past few daes...youth dae was quite simple, yoghurt ice cream n concert.have lessons...n i tink i screwed up in phys...i dun noe how 2 do e probs teacher gave us...n my ans r soo weird...i onli managed to get a qns correct..e rest r wrong!hope i dun screw my tests...maths was no better..i get wrong ans every time i do e qns...i get confused easily in class.. somone HELP ME!!!~sob~:((will most porb miss bio on mon...got 2 eat b4 oral..~panicky~