life's short..sigh..

haiz..ever since his demise..i juz fely uneasy...maybe becos i nvr go 2 his wake ba..felt kinda guilty.cos i had wanted 2 go..but i juz didnt wanna cry there..i noe crying is normal..juz dun wanna do tat in front of soo many ppl..call me a coward..i dun care..oso becos mum dun let me too..oh well..
felt sad n sorry 4 him after reading robin blog..goodness..nvr knew tat was soo serious..if only i had known..but it was all too late..sigh:/
sacrificing his life 4 our studies..tat was sth few can do..sigh..he was soo young at 36..n was only e hod 4 abt 4 yrs..when tis thing happened..:(..n i wanna 2 make up 4 wat i had done 2 him prev..by doing well 4 comb. humans...wish me luck ppl..cos tis can be done if theres a miracle..hopefully my wish will come true..n u noe sth..4 e online survey..i was very bias..cos he was e only tcher who had -ve comments..i put lotsa disagrees..haiz..kinda regret it now..nvr knew tat he actually cared 4 our studies..n did his best in trying 2 help us score..but i even complained tat his lessons r boring..like exaggerating tt lessons tat is 1/2 hr seemed like 3 hrs..felt like slapping myself...haiz..i did not have a good impression of him..but tat changed..only after his death..sigh
looking forward 2 tmr..yayy..cos its my class bbq..tink will be e last one b4 os..sigh..
life is soo short n fragile..treasure it..n treasure e ppl around u..
lord, thk u 4 bringing mr tan 2 noe u..n 2 trust u as ur lord n saviour..pray tat u will bless him always while he is wif u..n tat he will be happy always as he lives eternally in heaven..where there is no tears, hunger n thirst..amen..
mr tan..u will be in our hearts always..will rmb n miss u dearly..n we will fulfill ur wish..