why??

sometimes..i wonder..why do we hav 2 b so nice 2 ppl when u get e opp treatment from them in e end??sometimes..we dun get anything in return..or mayb even sacrifice sth juz 4 them..n we tink it is ok..but somehow..we regret it in e end..cos we feel tt we should get at least sth in return..to us..tt is juz normal..even though we r taught tt we should not get anything in return..e phrase hao xin ren hui you fu bao seems untrue nowadaes..in tis world..of course there r xceptions..but..sigh..tis actually happens most of e time..sadly..n it is natural 2 feel unhappy tt u hav done soo much 4 someone but u dun seem 2 get anything in e end..tt is life:X

as i walk alone..i tink 2 myself..is it worth being sooo nice 2 some ppl when they treat u as if u dun exist..i wonder..of course as i said..there r xceptions..but most of e time..it happens=.=..mayb tt is why i had become really hostile..like i always hav tis serious face..mayb i really hav become a porcupine..poking at others wif my spikes or showing them off..n chasing ppl away..mayb i am really tt unfriendly..it is juz tt i only realised it now..besides..wat happened 2dae also confirmed tis..i guess tis is juz my character n upbringing o.O