last post 4 tis mth:)

yayy..there was no mention of june hols pe remedial!!:D:D..haha..so yupp..i am gonna take tis opprtunity 2 train up my stamina;D..jiayous:D..but aiyo..hope i can make time 4 training lo..cos hav 2 prepare 4 midyr n cca D:..ok..juz gotta get over wif it lo xD..but ya..i may hav 2 sacrifice certain things 4 me 2 manage my time well..haiz x(..sorry 2 ppl whom i hav 2 "offend"..cos i seriously need 2 reset my priorities now :(..n as u noe..i hav lousy time management..even wif a timetable..i will somehow b so focused on studying 4 a sub tt i wont hav time 4 others Dx..
sch hols r finally here..which means i will b BUSYYY..ohno..n i am really tired rite now..sigh..

精诚所至，金石为开..你觉得在班上没有朋友，会不会是因为你本人太静了，你也不很主动，或许因为这样，大家也对你表现比较拘谨..试着让自己有一点改变，对学习，对班上，对同学等等..
hmm..i tink she makes sense afterall:)thks 4 ur kind advice..even though i tink u sound a little harsh:)

anyway..juz some pics 2 round off tis mth's post:D

soo busy lo!!

haiz..finally managed 2 sorta finalise gpp:D..thk God sia:D..but wait..better not b too ahppy yet..cos still hav a long way 2 go:/..jiayou ba ppl;)
den hav many class tests lo..n midyr coming le D:..oh no!!time really flies:X..den jun hols really packed la..like e 1st 2 wks alr got make up lects..den got hmk hmk n more hmk..n den i will b away on e 3rd wk;D..n some more i hav cca..sigh..so busy lo..n i tink i may not hav time 4 other commitments..my schedule alr very packed leh..haiz..guess juz gotta get used 2 it ba..
oh well.better not talk too much here..gtg..


sometimes..life is selfish..u hav 2 fight 4 ur right n may hurt others in e process..but soon..u will realise tt life has 2 go on..n tt ppl will only tink abt themselves..soon..u will juz become numb 2 such hurt n unknowingly..

happie~~

lalala~finally exhibition over le!!:D:D:D..den we can hav new proj coming up..haha..den wont feel so sian:D..hmm..wonder wat will we hav:)..hope it will b sth more interestin;)
anw yesterdae very busy leh..like we had 2 carry e artworks from e art rm 2 e lorry lo..some very heavy leh..ouch..den most of us girls hav 2 do e work lo><..but hey~tis shows tt we girls rock!!!!!hahaha..so guys..dun tink girls r incapable hor!! xD xD xD
we had 2 go 4 2 shifts-aft n nite..aft ended early..can go home slp;D..but nite time ended really late leh..omg..den my parents got pissed off..lols..
was supposed 2 reach sch by 8.30..den apparently someone was supposed 2 call us 2 report at 9.15 instead..>:(..damn angry la..make us go sch early w/o anyone informing us..anw went yck mrt walk walk..n crapped wif my frens:D..yayy..n i learnt quite a lot of stuff from them..like..i heard lotsa stuff tt i dunno..haha..mayb tis was a blessing in disguise..den we sat outside sch n emo~haha..tis time wif another fren who came l8r..lol..we look like we ran away from home :X..n cannot wait 4 lessons 2 start xP..den we say we r e 4 cats..LOL!!den got photog ppl come..den we become e 8 cats xD..
l8r e lorry came near e mph..our tcher ic helped us carry..haha..lessen our workload..wahh~luckily e weather was quite nice..n e sch very quiet..nice sia..
we hopped onto e lorry n our tcher drove us across aj square 2 foyer..haha..cos we lazy 2 walk:D;D:D;D..he rocks man!!!very dusty..but is was worth e ride..den we bring e art works 2 outside lib..we ended up using e moveable signboard tt says no entry xcept authorised vehicles as a trolley..hahaha..very creative sia~:D..yupp..
good job ppl!!u rock!!:D

my life is so screwed up..

i dun get it..why muz u compare us wif others??i noe we may be in e wrong sometimes..but does tt give u e rite 2 compare us wif others?
i dun understand..u claim tt we r not as smart as others..
do u tink we can b like others?smart n such?
if u really hate us so much..why dun u juz be wif them n throw us one side?
i dislike it when u keep comparing us wif others..
we seem 2 b so insignificant..u sound like u wan 2 disown us..
u keep criticising us..n praising others..
those praises tt we get from u r rare..really..
n u r afraid tt after u praise us we get swell headed n den we make mistakes..
i admit we r liddat sometimes..
but u juz dunno tt tis is my form of motivation..2 cont wif life even if other ppl treat us like dirt..
now..i juz feel life is meaningless..when u dun treat us as well as b4
u seem 2 find us a thorn in e flesh..even though u still did a lot 4 us..
i wanna thk u 4 e sacrifices n wateva u had done 4 us..
but now..i seriously need 2 tell u tt u dun seem 2 like us..
haiz..so wat if others r smart?i dun tink u noe life is not abt studies..

i dun intend 2 blog actually..but i really muz say tis..
u hav alr disappointed me..n u hav hurt me..
initially i felt a searing pain in my heart..n i wonder why u treat me e opp of how i hav treated u..
but now..i am numb 2 such pain..i seem 2 b immune 2 such pain..
n now..thks 2 u..i hav become stronger..more well trained in dealing wif pain n setbacks..esp those unexpected ones..
i muz really thks u 4 tt:D
i hav become a porcupine..protecting myself wif spikes n stinging those who hurt me..
i will luv 2 see u grit ur teeth wif pain after i give u a venomous sting..
cos u hav treated me like i dun exist..u pangseh-ed me..time n time again..
of course..there r times when u r nice 2 me..but now..
u r taking advantage of my kindness..u r soooo thick skinned..wow..
i am soo amazed at how u changed soo much..
i am surprised tt u hav become a diff person overnite..
i dun mean anyhting 2 u now..
so i might as well get away from u..b4 i get hurt even more..
no offense..but tis is wat u will get..
let me tell u..i will NOT get hurt once again:D
n yes..i will prove u wrong..tt even w/o u i can survive:D
i will juz lead my life wif ppl worth trusting instead of u..n i will definitely b happy:D..even if i really hav 2 live my life as a loner..i can still enjoy life's pleasures;D
u can get out of my life..i dun need u anw:)

wat am i gonna do??

my life is topsy turvy now..n i dunno wat should i do 2 make everything rite once again..like wat it used 2 b..

xtremely tired..n i am at e verge of snapping..n tis is not even e end yet..

if only i can turn back time..

why??

sometimes..i wonder..why do we hav 2 b so nice 2 ppl when u get e opp treatment from them in e end??sometimes..we dun get anything in return..or mayb even sacrifice sth juz 4 them..n we tink it is ok..but somehow..we regret it in e end..cos we feel tt we should get at least sth in return..to us..tt is juz normal..even though we r taught tt we should not get anything in return..e phrase hao xin ren hui you fu bao seems untrue nowadaes..in tis world..of course there r xceptions..but..sigh..tis actually happens most of e time..sadly..n it is natural 2 feel unhappy tt u hav done soo much 4 someone but u dun seem 2 get anything in e end..tt is life:X

as i walk alone..i tink 2 myself..is it worth being sooo nice 2 some ppl when they treat u as if u dun exist..i wonder..of course as i said..there r xceptions..but most of e time..it happens=.=..mayb tt is why i had become really hostile..like i always hav tis serious face..mayb i really hav become a porcupine..poking at others wif my spikes or showing them off..n chasing ppl away..mayb i am really tt unfriendly..it is juz tt i only realised it now..besides..wat happened 2dae also confirmed tis..i guess tis is juz my character n upbringing o.O

wat is wrong wif e world nowadaes???

sigh..i dun get it..when my frens move on..they become soo active in sch stuffs suddenly..like they participate in soo many activities out of e blue??i mean..i am not saying tt it is not a good thing..being active is good la..but..i cannot understand..we should b setting our priorities rite..i tink tt certain things r much impt than those activities..so why r we focusing too much on such stuffs??i may b immature..i may not noe wat is good 4 me..like wat benefits do i get..blah blah blah..mayb tt is becos i hav poor time management..tt is why i feel tt my frens r simply doing too much..i dunno..haiz..mayb i dun hav e courage 2 take up soo many activities..fearing tt i will b wasting more time when i alr hav soo little time..sorry 2 those who r offended by tis post..my mind is not clear rite now..juz take it tt i am talking nonsense ba..
when i was in LJ comm..i was not prepared 2 stay back in sch late 4 meetings..n gg back home late..so when my frens asked me if i am gg 4 exco..i told em no..cos i feared tt if i get in..den i hav 2 stay back pretty late thruout my 2 yrs..n i was not prepared or willing 2 do so..cos i had xperienced tis 1st hand..i am not saying tt i dun wan contribute 2 VA..i dun mind being in some sort of events comm occasionally..like LJ comm..but..not when i hav 2 manage e whole cca n get sressed up..i am not e type who can tahan stress..i juz wan 2 do things at my own pace..so ya..i dun wanna b preoccupied by too much stuffs..cos i really need some free time of my own..2 juz relax n forget abt everything..even though tis may seem impossible now..

my life is totally screwed up..

things r not good 4 me nowadaes..i mean..i noe i should not b saying tis..cos my blog is not supposed 2 b sad all along n stuff..but really..things r not picking up..in fact..there is one of e daes where i had a string of unfortunate incidents tt hapened 2 me..all in a dae:/
failed napfa..4 e 1st time in my life..ppl got a shock when i told em i failed..cos htey dun expect a seemingly fit person like me 2 fail..sure..i dun care wat they tink..i dun care if i fail or not..it is juz tt i cant stand e fact of not being able 2 pass..worst still..i only failed sit n reach by 1cm-.-..like..wth..all becos of a stupid 1cm i had 2 go 4 stupid pe remedial during june hols>.<..n i hav 2 retake all 5 stations:/..was pretty upset n angry wif myself 4 not being able 2 stretch 4 juz 1cm..even if it means breaking my back bone..where e hell is my so-called perserverance??!!darn..but anyway..it may b a blessing in disguise..cos i also did not so well some of my other stations..so mayb tis is an opportunity 2 start training 4 e long mths b4 retest..but..i dun wan 2 go 4 remedial becos i only failed marginally n it is pointless 4 me 2 go..worst still..they may even train us 4 other stations which i am alr strong in n dun need add practice=.=..oh well..lets hope things change 4 e better..
den..we got back chem..n i failed..tis was not surprising actually..cos i expected it..sort of..darn:/
n when i went home by bus..i was very tired..so i slept on e bus..den i missed my stop Dx..e only consolation is tt i managed 2 wake up on time..n alighted at e bus stop after my supposed stop on time..so i only need 2 walk a little more home..
so ya..a lot of bad stuffs happened..haiz..ever since i stepped into aj..it seems tt my life is a complete mess..totally screwed up..i wonder..r ppl in jcs really cursed??i dunno abt those in polys though..they may or may not b juz as bad..but really..i tink jc life is tt screwed up..on e other hand..i dun tink i am suited 4 poly..cos there r lotsa projects..which i dun really like..esp if u very unlucky get some slackers D:..
n..pw sucks..waste of my time effort n money x(

i juz cannot understand..

i am very sure tt u hav changed..wats wrong wif u??u r not e one whom i noe..
i dun get it..u hav changed soo much..i dun even noe if u r REALLY my fren or not..
i almost cannot recognise u..omg Dx
juz cannot stand it..its like..i dunno..ur true colours r finally showing..but everything seems 2 b changing soo fast..i am juz not used 2 it..i feel tt u r distant..almost invisible:(
mayb tts becos i am a hypocrite..trying not 2 show my true colours??i guess so..i noe ppl who seemed 2 b close 2 me r saying i am one..
i gotta admit tt i may b one..cos i try 2 b nice 2 ppl even when they treat me horribly..but..
I TINK THOSE BUNCH OF IDIOTS R WORST THAN HYPOCRITES,COS THEY CALL OTHERS HYPOCRITES WHEN ACTUALLY THEY THEMSELVES R HYPOCRITES!!!THEY R SO "NICE" 2 ME EVEN IF THEY ACTUALLY HATE ME 2 E CORE!!WATS E DIFF??WAT RIGHT DO THEY HAV 2 SAY SUCH THINGS ABT ME OR OTHERS??WATS SOOO GREAT ABT THEM MAN??
COME ON LA..GIVE ME A BREAK CAN??I AM SICK N TIRED OF U!!!!AT LEAST I DUN ANYHOW CALL PPL HYPOCRITES!I AM NOT SAYING I AM GREAT OR WAT..BUT GET TIS INTO UR BLOATED HEADS:DUN TINK U R TT GOOD HOR!!Dx Dx Dx
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